Help How to apologize without raising suspicions

[dec132013]

Not planning on leaving soon, but when the time comes I want to apologize to some people for constantly annoying them, potentially offending them etc... (ik i must be cause i always get left on read, usually start the convos etc... lmfao)

I don't want it to be awkward or risk someone figuring out i'm going to ctb, but i don't want to go without clearing some stuff up

Edit: if i were to apologize now, I wouldn't be able to talk to them again because what they likely want most is to never hear from me again. I'm not apologizing because i realized i'm abusive or anythin, I just realized how i'm annoying asf by always sliding into their dms lmfaooo. I don't have anyone else to talk to and i'm already lonely, so I figured why not just tone it down for the next lil while then leave them alone forever, rather than isolating myself completely till i ctb

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Why not clear stuff up regardless?

 

[dec132013]

Why not clear stuff up regardless?

I don't have anyone else to talk to and enjoy talking to them, so I wanna try holding onto that until i'm certain I'll ctb. The only thing that they'd actually appreciate is never seeing me again, making the time between now and my date extra miserable

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Just say it. It's fine to show gratitude or regret even when you're not going to ctb.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I recently sent out some apologies to people for my behaviour when I was unmedicated and manic as hell. Just to explain my behaviour and why it happened and to say sorry. You don't need a time to do it, any time is good, people like it when you take accountability for things.