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FERAL_FRENZY
Legionnaire <3
- Apr 18, 2024
- 49
(First of all, I don't exactly know where I should put this post. I'm not sure if it falls under "Suicide Discussion" or "Recovery." I mean, I'm not exactly "recovering" if I'm still cutting myself like a piece of fruit.)
SH was my last resort for attempting to get rid of the godforsaken emptiness that continues to plague me day by day. While it did bring me some relief at first, now it feels just as dull as the rest of my coping mechanisms. It's now just another thing I do to pass the time. I'm at my wits end, and I literally don't know what else to do. I obviously can't tell my family because they'll immediately throw me into a psych ward, and I can't tell my online friends because they're just regular teenagers who have no idea what it's like to feel empty. I used to journal about my feelings when I was younger, but that just feels like talking to the void. Most of my time's spent drowning out my thoughts with music, but even that's not enough to completely drown out any sort of critical thinking. I think I'm fucked, but I'm still open to any advice given.
SH was my last resort for attempting to get rid of the godforsaken emptiness that continues to plague me day by day. While it did bring me some relief at first, now it feels just as dull as the rest of my coping mechanisms. It's now just another thing I do to pass the time. I'm at my wits end, and I literally don't know what else to do. I obviously can't tell my family because they'll immediately throw me into a psych ward, and I can't tell my online friends because they're just regular teenagers who have no idea what it's like to feel empty. I used to journal about my feelings when I was younger, but that just feels like talking to the void. Most of my time's spent drowning out my thoughts with music, but even that's not enough to completely drown out any sort of critical thinking. I think I'm fucked, but I'm still open to any advice given.