Discussion How sure are you about going through with it?

[Thereisnothing]

I know we are all here because of Suicide and everything it brings with it. I was just wondering how we all felt individually about going through with it. For me I am all over the place with how feel about CTB, changes so often. I dont wish to be here, yet dont wish to die either and when do wish to go, I have no method yet worked out. So hard.

 

[Defenestrator]

I'm somewhere between undecided and sure - as I have put things in place (note etc.) for when it happens as I know that where I'm at right now, it could happen suddenly. I'll try to make sure there's no evidence of me being on this site when I do though.

 

[Garbage Person]

I'm mostly undecided I guess. I had planned on it after I go completely broke, but I'm still thinking about the effects it will have on family. I would like to use nitrogen, but it would entail me building up more money right now, so my default is hanging. That's where I'm at.

 

[NonsenseTrash]

I'm mostly undecided. I have been flirting with death a while now, but there's still that small part of me that wants to live. I have prepared, but i continue to waffle. I have played around with partial a while now, but ordered SN as a final method that I will take, if I make the decision.

 

[LMLN]

I'm somewhere between undecided and sure - as I have put things in place (note etc.) for when it happens as I know that where I'm at right now, it could happen suddenly. I'll try to make sure there's no evidence of me being on this site when I do though.

Me too. Somewhere between undecided and sure. I think it will happen at some point. Unless things really turn around for me. I have everything ready to go if and when that time comes.

 

[Conker]

The date has already been set in stone, may I be lucky enough to be the decider of when, how & where..

 

[porfin1234]

I can't imagine continuing my life in this path (job, finances). But I also knownricgt now I wouldn't be able to go through with it. I don't hate life. I just can't live with choices and consequences

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Going to deal with my will, my belongings, in this year. And then highly likely, I'll 'lay me down to rest, and pray to God for my soul to give".

 

[Wayfaerer]

I don't hate life. I just can't live with choices and consequences

Same. I even have things in my favor, such as no debt and would-be college degree in STEM if I had not turned suicidal. I hadn't made a high # of mistakes but the few that I have would cost me very dearly. If I had to say that I've been a victim of anything in this life, it would be bad timing.

 

[mesohappy]

Sure..I don't see myself making it to next month, tbh.But I still keep catching little glimmers of hope/guilt.So I cant say Im at 100%.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I desperately want to, even in moments where things feel OK or I'm having a manic episode, it's still there. I'm so tired. It's a tired I just can't explain and sleep doesn't help.

 

[issyishere]

I definitely would, just that all the methods have drawbacks except for one that's hard to access.

 

[TheEndof]

I'm sure. I think there will always be a part of me that doesn't want to go through with it in hopes of things changing for the better. That's the part that I wrestle with daily.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I'm going. My hope is soon. I can't keep living this way.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yeah I'm pretty sure summer 2021 is it. I wish it was this summer that was what was planned but all my debt isn't payed off yet so yeah.