Help How should i tell my mom i need help and that I'm considering catching the bus

[Venateration]

My mom knows I have suicidal ideation, and that I have self harmed before. I've made small mentions of me wanting to kill myself (she yells at me when I say I want to) and that she would not get me real help (only push more non-working medication on me or send me to therapy that won't do shit) so how do I tell her I need something other then medication or 'Normal' therapy or I will attempt again

 

[MatiSendiri]

Don't push your mom further if you can't risk her wrath. I'd suggest that you find local resources for the ctb issue. It sounds like that you still need parental care but most of the time family won't give a shit about this until someone catch the bus.

Anyway, good for you to bring your issue here. Proud of you champ

 

[Linda]

The thought of you catching the bus might scare your mother, which could be why she reacts the way she does.

If you want help from her, I think your best option is to give her the facts. Tell her that you are not messing about, you are not trying to put pressure on her, but that you need help, you are not getting that help, and that suicide is now a very real possibility. You should also tell her that the kinds of intervention that have been tried in the past do not work for you, and there is no point repeating them.

It would help her, I think, if you could describe the kinds of intervention that you think would (or at least might) help you. You mother is not a professional therapist, and she may have no idea how to help you.

Of course, you must be prepared for the possibility that you won't get any real help from her, either because she can't or she won't help. You should think how you would deal with that, if it were to happen, before you talk to her.