How old were you when you had your first suicide attempt?

[LastFlowers]

I took some pills once (hardly anything lethal but had to drink the tar stuff nonetheless) and sliced my wrist up with glass another time (not my finest moment), I believe all in the late teen years, but I cannot claim any of those times were true suicide attempts. It was more like a cornered animal attacking itself, at a loss for what else to do.

Now things are a little different. I understand more and have suffered even longer. I don't have the same impulses as I did when I was young but the pain is still unmistakable. So now, when I make my attempt, it needs to be more than an attempt, more than a random attack against myself. It needs to end my life once and for all.

 

[Sunset764]

14. I tried to overdose on pills

 

[LonelyCarioca]

17, I swallowed 6 bottles of visine (the eye drop stuff) because I heard it could kill you. It dropped my bp dangerously low but my friend found me barely conscious and unresponsive and called an ambulance. I hardly remember being at the hospital I was so out of it. I don't think it kills you though. I was dumb and impulsive. That was 11 years ago. This time, I'm doing my research and doing it right, and it's not an impulsive decision!

 

[manwewaslonely]

16

 

[Erin Inari]

End of high school, I tried to take a lot of different meds that I had on hand without much thought, ended up not being able to walk straight for the next day and threw up what I had taken

 

[Egddios]

My 30th birthday - overdosed and laid down under a truck parked in midtown Manhattan over Memorial Day weekend. Figured/hoped if the overdose didn't kill me, maybe the truck would crush me when it eventually drove off. Was unconscious for about a day, my husband (we're now divorced) had the NYPD looking for me, which they found me eventually, of course. Ended up in Bellevue Hospital. What a shit hole that psych unit was.

 

[Hotsackage]

I've tried hanging myself. I had 2 close attempts. Hopefully next one is the right one wen my parents croke

 

[Suicidal4Ever]

17 or 18 cant remember. But the first solid attempt was trying to OD on allergy meds lol. Took about 20 pills.

 

[Notcutoutforlife]

10 from paracetamol and alcohol - didn't get very far into it, turns out it was an existential crisis but the thoughts and conclusions you come to never leave you! God I wish I'd kept going (and yes I realise now pills aren't the way but even at 10 I just wanted to go peacefully and didn't know any better ha).

 

[Futility]

I was 8. Hanging.
The knots failed and I hurt my face, to this day I wish I had succeeded because it's only gotten worse since.

 

[NotOfThisEarth]

14 took pills-didn't take enough-they just made me groggy. 16 tried again with pills & rushed to ER. Should have had some kind of therapy right?? Nothing. Just sad, angry, awkward, & misunderstood. Turned to alcohol, sex, drugs, & food.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

14 hanging

 

[mathieu]

15. Pills.

 

[BorderingDeath]

9, had thoughts as long I can remember. Jumping from apartment balcony. Could not climb the fully cement railing/wall.

 

[purplemoon]

i was 14 and and had just been assaulted by a creepy guy in my high school, he even attacked other boys, horrifying monsters out there. That was on top of violence from my own father who was unpredictable daily around me, my mom, and sister.

 

[134340]

14, took a massive dose of aspirin. It was awful.

 

[Dee38]

First time was 21 with sleeping pills and alcohol. Ended up in A & E. Then again at 22 with a large overdose of antidepressants, painkillers, and diazepam. Threw up all over myself and couldn't get out of bed for a week. Total fail.

38 now and still here...

 

[WhyIsLife56]

It was 3 years in 2016, I was going to drown myself in a lake behind the dorm I was living in. I almost attempted it. I was 21.

 

[OreoWellington]

16 years old. I was serious about my intent, but it failed. I should have succeeded. I knew exactly what I was doing (which was preventing future misery).

 

[6ixxy]

22, about 8 months ago
Partial suspension when my parents were on holiday. Funny how they tell you it'll get better, so far it's only got worse.