Fthis
Student
- Dec 8, 2020
- 192
Just wondering how old you were when you were first suicidal.
What a coincidence. I am 29 aswell and have the same thoughtNow i'm 29 and, unless miracle, i'll commit this year.
Does this count? I was once mad I don't know why was about 8-9 years old and I went to kitchen and get a knife and thought about suicide.Younger than 10. Early elementary school. Have a vivid memory of myself crying in front of a mirror wailing that I'm ugly and want to die. Maybe I didn't want to actually die, but the seed was planted.
It doesn't. But like I've said, a seed was planted around that time. Plus, hearing my father saying to my mother after every argument (and they argued every day) that he's gonna hang himself didn't help.Does this count? I was once mad I don't know why was about 8-9 years old and I went to kitchen and get a knife and thought about suicide.
Yeah I thought so. That's the reason it began for me with 21 and by 23 I had a time limitIt doesn't. But like I've said, a seed was planted around that time. Plus, hearing my father saying to my mother after every argument (and they argued every day) that he's gonna hang himself didn't help.
In my case, it really began in high school. That's when I started abusing pills and learning to make nooses.Yeah I thought so. That's the reason it began for me with 23
i wonder if i was wired different to other normal people, my brother ended his life when he was around 40 after a tumultuous life, maybe its hereditaryI've never really liked living my whole life, but I think I began to recognise that I preferred the option of death when I was 11. I think these types of thoughts and my hostility towards existing are simply wired into my mental thought processes.