How often have you thought about ctb today?

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

A lot

 

[uzuf86]

I think about it at least once every hour

 

[CoRaven]

Daily, especially as of late.

 

[Some place nice]

All night last night and all day today.

 

[TimetoGo!]

First thought when I wake up, last thought before I go to sleep, and everything in between. It's the only thing that makes me feel happy/calm/safe.

Knowing that it'll all be over, soon. Soon, I won't have to feel this pain anymore. I won't have to feel anything anymore.

This

 

[almondmilk]

for the past 5 months, every single day i fantasise about ways to ctb

 

[CannabisMuncher]

Just curious. I think about it all the time.

about five times this past few hours
i genuinely need help but nothing ever helps

 

[gggy]

everytime I'm not distracted enough to shut up my brain

 

[BlazingBob]

about five times this past few hours
i genuinely need help but nothing ever helps

I completely understand. Nothing ever helps me either. I just want to not exist and for this nightmare to be over.

 

[moja bieda]

Constantly unless I am able to actively distract myself with some other activity. It's like the default thought that is the background fog in my mind.
It's actually quite comforting to see so many other people have the same experience.