How often do you think of ctb?

[cap]

I think of it every single day. How about you guys?

 

[Retched]

I'm obsessed with it. Not going to lie. For a few months now.

 

[Circles]

I think of it every single day. How about you guys?

Same, I think about it everyday cause I always wonder what's the point in trying. I literally have to fight inside my head just to block out the suicidal thoughts which takes a lot of energy and effort for some small peace of mind.

 

[Retched]

Same, I think about it everyday cause I always wonder what's the point in trying. I literally have to fight inside my head just to block out the suicidal thoughts which takes a lot of energy and effort for some small peace of mind.

It always goes to the back of my mind and pokes at the front of my mind. It's hard. I know what you are saying here.

 

[Circles]

It always goes to the back of my mind and pokes at the front of my mind. It's hard. I know what you are saying here.

Words just cannot describe how my brain goes into a state of limbo so to speak. Just as what's under my name: there's a difference between existing and living. Like I'm just walking through life foggy aimlessly not knowing anything about being human and feel so overwhelmed by it all.

 

[worldexploder]

All day everyday.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have thought about it every day since I was 14 so that is over 10 years now.

 

[Voldmort]

generally everyday, but sometimes i forget i am suicidal for some days or just hours

 

[Battered_Seoul]

Everyday.

It boggles my mind that the world is comprised of billions of sentient organic Things dreaming within skulls that are themselves encased within rotting meat and completely at the mercy of chance, mortality and chaos. How are the majority OK with this? Why isn't everyone in a state of terror all day every day?

Blows my mind. Benzo withdrawal probably isn't helping.

 

[Prime]

I think of it every single day. How about you guys?

24*7

 

[Daystavro]

24*7

Same here man. 24/7.

 

[Prime]

Words just cannot describe how my brain goes into a state of limbo so to speak. Just as what's under my name: there's a difference between existing and living. Like I'm just walking through life foggy aimlessly not knowing anything about being human and feel so overwhelmed by it all.

I relate.

 

[Prime]

It sucks when you think of it 24*7. You plan everything. You think through everything. You have the note ready. You double check your "apparatus". Wait for the time when you are home alone. Attempt. Fail. Then repeat all over again. It sucks.

 

[dysfunctional]

75% of the time

 

[Fucking loving it]

I'm obsessed. I think of it A LOT.

 

[sadsoul]

Almost every day of 2018. The good thing is that you get so used to the thought of suicide that you're not that scared of attempting anymore. Attempting becomes almost a normal thing that you do from time to time.

 

[Prime]

Almost every day of 2018. The good thing is that you get so used to the thought of suicide that you're not that scared of attempting anymore. Attempting becomes almost a normal thing that you do from time to time.

True. It becomes a "routine" thing to do. Like buying eggs from the grocery store. You do it every week !

 

[Susannah]

First thing I think about when I wake up. Before sleeping, I always play with different ways to die. It makes me calm and happy.

 

[Cee]

constantly. only time im not thinking of it is when im distracted by something else, but thats all it is. a distraction.

 

[Fellow]

All the time.

 

[Empty Smile]

I could be so focused on doing something, and there is ALWAYS that thought there. It's not a day by day thing for me, it's a minute by minute thing.

It comes to me as normal as breathing.

 

[Retched]

I could be so focused on doing something, and there is ALWAYS that thought there. It's not a day by day thing for me, it's a minute by minute thing.

It comes to me as normal as breathing.

I feel this way too. At work, at home. Everywhere.

 

[Jen Erik]

A few times an hour, at least.

 

[Jai]

I think of it every single day. How about you guys?

The second I wake till the second ( if I'm lucky ) sleep not just CTB but death

 

[Jai]

The second I wake till the second ( if I'm lucky ) sleep not just CTB but death

Woke up 6 hrs ago and must've gone through a million scenarios

 

[Kim]

Everyday....

 

[cupio dissolvi]

Having obsessive-compulsive disorder, I know thinking about ctb acts as a compulsion to me: it's the only thing that calms me down. That, or hoping for something that's never going to happen. So yeah, given that I obsess pretty much all day everyday...

 

[Ashpac]

Everyday from 2003 until last week. 15 Years of pure mental torture. Towards the end I would fantasise about me dying for hours every day and picturing my funeral and how my family would react to it.

 

[About_to_Go]

I can't remember a day when I didn't think about it.

 

[jaemus12]

Daily. But it pisses me off because I'm kind of nervous about it too. It makes me feel even more useless than I already am because I can't even grow the balls to do it.

Someone just kill me please.