I feel like i go out a lot compared to others in similar situations. I used to be out of the house for uni all the time, everyday at the library or studio. Right now its way less. Tho sometimes its as much as 2-4 times a week socially. I've got a very ~seemingly normal~ baseline while suicidal/depressed. I sorta exist in a constant state of derealisation. I see friends, go to my studio for commissions, conduct research for work, work on projects, get drinks, catch up socially, etc just biding time till I have everything. I think because i find a lot of comfort from ppl relying on me for support which makes me feel guilty/weak (I know its not its just the way i process it). Also because if I didn't, it would arouse suspicion/warning signs (or I hope it would). Idk I've never "pulled away" or "isolated" myself before an attempt.