How much time do you spend on SS or reading about methods?

[symphony]

Just wondering where everyone else falls on this. I think about suicide in some form near-constantly. I'm on my laptop for about all of my free time and always have SS open in the background and often switch between SS and doing something else. For maybe a third of my free time I'm actively on SS and/or researching methods (e.g. by reading the PPeH). I'll also browse the forums as a guest on my phone during breaks in regular activity throughout the day.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also am always thinking about ctb, all that I want is to be gone. When I read about methods it reminds me of how difficult it really is to leave this world but at the same time it comforts me knowing that there is always a way to escape this life no matter what happens. I probably spend too much time on here, it is just a way to pass the time, that is all.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Not sure how much time per day but I'm here every day.

 

[indigomoon]

I get on here a couple of times a day just depending on what I'm doing. Definitely at bedtime because I have insomnia so bad. It helps pass the time when I'm lying in bed in the dark wishing myself to sleep.

 

[Al_stargate]

2-3 hours a day since a created account here. Helps to connect with fellow sufferers. I get bored of things quickly so hope to keep engaged till I have everything ready for my ride to the other side.

 

[symphony]

2-3 hours a day since a created account here. Helps to connect with fellow sufferers. I get bored of things quickly so hope to keep engaged till I have everything ready for my ride to the other side.

I have the same hope. Being here is a good source of support and distraction. I worry that eventually I'll feel like I've "seen everything", especially when I've read all the major relevant info on methods, and then I won't be able to waste as much time here.

 

[houseofleaves]

especially when I've read all the major relevant info on methods, and then I won't be able to waste as much time here.

but you'll be able to help others then!

 

[Al Cappella]

Reading about methods, not so much. I have the PPH, that's good enough. But then, I've always kinda known what my "how" would be. So I came here just hoping, after so many years being alone with it, to talk to others who were like me…

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I read nearly everything from here and choose my method by now. it is not perfect but i am ok with this. I m ready, just collecting mental streanght to do it.

 

[CreatifUsrnam]

I spend a few hours every day reading through SS and archives of old pro-choice stuff.

I find it oddly comforting.

 

[Lost Magic]

I don't do much research on methods now that I have a couple of good ones at my disposal. However, I do still enjoy watching those peaceful death videos on youtube and the likes. Now, I just have to finalize a few things, lay down and take my medicine. Happy days

 

[elbjr]

Most of my time here is reading about just that. I'm ready. Calm, sober and ready. I'm not here to get any attention and I definitely won't be using that goodbye thread. I'm just ready to ct fucking b..