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jifscrater

jifscrater

Member
Apr 17, 2025
26
So lets say you won 1m in lottery. what do you think that would do to you?
 
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Jadeith

Wizard
Jan 14, 2025
641
what do you think that would do to you?
Most probably would kill me within 72 hours or so. Given that my main reasons for suicide are rooted in myself and in my past and the only thing that keeps me here is my usefulness to others and need to protect my fam then winning large amount of money would ensure their financial safety hence rendering me obsolete.
 
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monolog

Student
Oct 29, 2024
166
If I got only 20000$ most of my problems would be fixed, even 10000$ would be enough
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,326
It would solve all my problems 100%
 
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lastch

Student
Oct 2, 2024
100
I would move away and start a new life. My problems are that everyone knows about a public mental breakdown I had and I'm too embarrassed to leave the house. If I had that kind of money, I would up and leave the country and buy an apartment and go to college and make friends. I don't know if that would make me happy and I wouldn't eventually CTB but it sure would be worth a try.
 
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dimgobaith

Student
Jun 17, 2024
119
Not all of my problems would be fixed but it would sure help.
I'm genuinely looking at selling photos on the Internet for money at this point
 
Thekla

Thekla

The Lord will take me home.
May 29, 2024
54
Most, if not all of my problems would be solved.
 
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Impertin

New Member
Apr 6, 2025
4
Literally won't do a thing besides feeling good in leaving something behind for my family. Gives me less guilt to actually do it.
 
Natty*

Natty*

Member
Mar 31, 2025
68
Not much. I have plenty of money anyway. I would enjoy giving more money to my family that I'm leaving behind and it would make me happy to think of what they would do with it and how it may provide them with some relief after I'm gone. My sister knows I'm leaving and she said she'll need a really good therapist, etc...
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,511
 
dontletthembribeyou

dontletthembribeyou

autistic girlfailure
Mar 4, 2025
148
Almost all of it. My main problems rn are health issues and being ugly, which could be easily solved with money. I still couldn't erase the past though.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,949
For me non-existence really is always preferable and is all I could hope for no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I'd prefer to not exist and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I don't see it as an illness to prefer the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep over waiting to die in this existence that was so tragically imposed that was competely unnecessary where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.

I see existing as so futile and so undesirable, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to die tortured by old age, existence itself is the problem to me and I only see non-existence as positive, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence that just caused and brought all this suffering all for the sake of it.
 

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