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koskikoski
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- Aug 17, 2020
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I'm so tired ... so tired. Another thrashing with parents. I understand that they cannot understand, and will not understand for sure.
The fact is that I am sick chronically and it cannot be treated and it only gets worse, now it is simply unbearable. there is no way to relieve pain / improve. But my parents (especially my mother) continue to believe in some kind of treatment that will somehow come and help me. They want to take me to the doctors again, although it hurts for me.
because of the pain, I come across an incredibly strong anxiety, the body seems to be defending itself. This is a very strong anxiety and it also cannot be stopped. And I can no longer with this pain, I'm not going to live with it, only the thought of ctb calms me down.
I know that my mother loves me, but she says "fight", and I just CAN'T. no one was in the place and does not know what kind of torture it is almost 24/7. There is also my grandmother and my mother, I supposedly mentioned. was more positive in front of her because she was supposedly worried.
I'm terribly empathic, and I can't worry about them either. what should I do? I try to say that I can't fight, but it's useless. fight and that's it.
The fact is that I am sick chronically and it cannot be treated and it only gets worse, now it is simply unbearable. there is no way to relieve pain / improve. But my parents (especially my mother) continue to believe in some kind of treatment that will somehow come and help me. They want to take me to the doctors again, although it hurts for me.
because of the pain, I come across an incredibly strong anxiety, the body seems to be defending itself. This is a very strong anxiety and it also cannot be stopped. And I can no longer with this pain, I'm not going to live with it, only the thought of ctb calms me down.
I know that my mother loves me, but she says "fight", and I just CAN'T. no one was in the place and does not know what kind of torture it is almost 24/7. There is also my grandmother and my mother, I supposedly mentioned. was more positive in front of her because she was supposedly worried.
I'm terribly empathic, and I can't worry about them either. what should I do? I try to say that I can't fight, but it's useless. fight and that's it.