how much burden does the desire to end ones own life take off them ?

[Worst creature]

im not depressed but for the most part im dead inside, stressing about life, or wishing to just break down in tears. Im adicted to my phone. it just numbs me into accepting my fate.

Escapsim = Happyness
Happyness = Escapism

If reality truly confronts me im unsure if ill survive. maybe. one day.

 

[logar]

I feel you. I do cry a ton, I think it helps let your emotions out, so if you need to, cry. It really helps. I also stress a lot about life like you.

For me, I don't think the desire of suicide exactly takes the burden completely off, but it does provide a relief in my situation. I think about it a lot. Maybe it could mean I'm not fully ready, I don't know really. If you aren't truly ready, you don't need to hurry. Take all time that you need, and just know that I'm wishing you the best and that I hope that you don't have to deal with this pain anymore. :)

 

[itsgone2]

None because it's so difficult

 

[Forever Sleep]

Passive ideation is comforting but then- the thought of actually having to suicide is terrifying. Plus, I feel like I have to wait for my Dad to go first so, it's more like a forbidden way out at the moment- which feels frustrating.

 

[Worst creature]

Passive ideation is comforting but then- the thought of actually having to suicide is terrifying. Plus, I feel like I have to wait for my Dad to go first so, it's more like a forbidden way out at the moment- which feels frustrating.

i think about death more like im about to do the world a service. I have a noose and an anchor point at home. One day i hung it up and i still remember very well that voice in my head telling me what a hero i was beeing. it was a very comforting moment, even tho i knew i wasnt gonna do anything to myself that night

 

[Forever Sleep]

i think about death more like im about to do the world a service. I have a noose and an anchor point at home. One day i hung it up and i still remember very well that voice in my head telling me what a hero i was beeing. it was a very comforting moment, even tho i knew i wasnt gonna do anything to myself that night

Practically speaking- in terms of the environment- I also believe my suicide will be doing it a favour. The problem being that the effect it will likely have on people in my life likely won't be so positive and, the thought of their grief feels more real. I suppose also- even if we are gone, there's still the remaining 8 billion people left polluting the earth.

I feel like I will be being my own hero if I manage to suicide though. Saving myself from a whole bunch more suffering. Suicide does feel like being the hero in my own story.

 

[Worst creature]

I feel like I will be being my own hero if I manage to suicide

Thats the Part where we differ. I think my death would be a service to far more people than it would hurt. afterall the tears the worry the sadness thats like 2 weeks post death and then life just goes on... speaking from experience