NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
Surprisingly, only once. Had to commit myself and after a few days, was deemed 'sane, but experiences severe depressive episodes'. So got let go and been avoiding them ever since.
 
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Done at Fifty

Student
Feb 19, 2019
116
never. I thought of going once. I heard from many that it doesn't help and I imagined the nurses and docs being rude.
 
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Pepper

Member
May 22, 2019
55
Four times. All involuntary.
2012 - Three weeks.
2013 - A week and half at most.
2014 - Another week and a half at most.
2015 - Two weeks, maybe?

You get good at playing the system, but I know if I were to go back now, there's most likely no way I'm coming back out again.
Between 27 and 35 over the last 10 years I guess? A gold trophy for attention whoring goes to me, yay

This blows my mind. How have you managed not to get committed for life?
 
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Soul

Soul

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Apr 12, 2019
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Four, all as a minor. One stay was pretty much fun.
 
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ReneeSuicideAccount

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Jun 3, 2019
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Everytime you mess up self harming the hospital sends you to a ward after they put you back together
 
Sideswipe

Sideswipe

I have 2 Simian Palms... DNA is F@£ked
Nov 20, 2019
208
I don't actually know anymore.. usually it's 7-10 days tho with 5 of those in seclusion and repeat injecting of tranqs/loraz.. No other contact other than to be pinned down for that. They leave the lights on so you don't really know if it's night or day and take your clothes away in return for an indestructible Tshirt.
I'm very volatile on admission, usually via secure ambulance or Police.
things have gotten better though, back in 2010 It used to be Police station 1st, pinned to the floor in cuffs for 12hrs plus before MHT came, then transfer to Hospital and get a bloody good beating regularly from the nurses.
Police and staff now are much less aggressive but the damage is done here so I'm like a feral cat regardless.. I average maybe 2-3 x a year on Section
Police holds (136 in UK) are more frequent.. Sometimes I'm put on a S2 and other times a Taxi home after a few days waiting for the Drs and AMHP to turn up and assess me.
On Three occasions I've not been assessed at all just drugged and taken straight to seclusion...
 
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Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
Same as me @LonelyLight. I think you might be from the same country as me and from what I've seen, I think you have to be more or less completely batshit crazy here and at risk of harming others as well as yourself. There just aren't enough beds. I've had 3 serious attempts and was just referred for counselling with the suicide prevention folk but wasn't even considered as an inpatient.
A girl I know from the same town has been sectioned 4 times this year but she was seeing visions of zombies who were telling her to harm her kids.
Little old me was considered perfectly sane and rational in comparison.
I don't actually know anymore.. usually it's 7-10 days tho with 5 of those in seclusion and repeat injecting of tranqs/loraz.. No other contact other than to be pinned down for that. They leave the lights on so you don't really know if it's night or day and take your clothes away in return for an indestructible Tshirt.
I'm very volatile on admission, usually via secure ambulance or Police.
things have gotten better though, back in 2010 It used to be Police station 1st, pinned to the floor in cuffs for 12hrs plus before MHT came, then transfer to Hospital and get a bloody good beating regularly from the nurses.
Police and staff now are much less aggressive but the damage is done here so I'm like a feral cat regardless.. I average maybe 2-3 x a year on Section
Police holds (136 in UK) are more frequent.. Sometimes I'm put on a S2 and other times a Taxi home after a few days waiting for the Drs and AMHP to turn up and assess me.
On Three occasions I've not been assessed at all just drugged and taken straight to seclusion...
That's dreadful..... treating you like a criminal and beating you up?!
That would cause anybody to go nuts.
I love your signature by the way... I prefer animals too.
 
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LonelyLight

Warlock
May 31, 2019
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Same as me @LonelyLight. I think you might be from the same country as me and from what I've seen, I think you have to be more or less completely batshit crazy here and at risk of harming others as well as yourself. There just aren't enough beds. I've had 3 serious attempts and was just referred for counselling with the suicide prevention folk but wasn't even considered as an inpatient.
A girl I know from the same town has been sectioned 4 times this year but she was seeing visions of zombies who were telling her to harm her kids.
Little old me was considered perfectly sane and rational in comparison.
You are completely right, if your not mental enough, you wont get in.
I knew a woman who swallowed batteries weekly and was constantly doing mad shit, they wouldnt let her into the mental cause she was actually "too crazy" and something to do with mismatch diagnoses? But, you know where she ended up? Prison. Now she deserved it, she fucked boiling water over someone. But she was mental and needed help. She was released and shes now in a mental health facility in the UK.
But the Irish system definitely failed her.
 
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Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
You are completely right, if your not mental enough, you wont get in.
I knew a woman who swallowed batteries weekly and was constantly doing mad shit, they wouldnt let her into the mental cause she was actually "too crazy" and something to do with mismatch diagnoses? But, you know where she ended up? Prison. Now she deserved it, she fucked boiling water over someone. But she was mental and needed help. She was released and shes now in a mental health facility in the UK.
But the Irish system definitely failed her.
Exactly what I'm talking about.
I just wasn't crazy enough to qualify.
But the crazy ones are sent right back on out there to continue swallowing batteries or boiling people alive!
That girl I mentioned was sent right back home as the sole carer of her kids despite the ongoing advice from zombies to harm them. It's a disaster waiting to happen.
 
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Kotochan

Student
Jul 17, 2019
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You are completely right, if your not mental enough, you wont get in.
I knew a woman who swallowed batteries weekly and was constantly doing mad shit, they wouldnt let her into the mental cause she was actually "too crazy" and something to do with mismatch diagnoses? But, you know where she ended up? Prison. Now she deserved it, she fucked boiling water over someone. But she was mental and needed help. She was released and shes now in a mental health facility in the UK.
But the Irish system definitely failed her.
Hmm I'm in the US and I had a somewhat similar experience when a hospital refused to take me because I attempted in the hospital. That sounds a bit odd to me in terms of reasons but who knows lmao - I guess they have like a standard for when something is too much too handle.

I wish I could get insight on what's up with that haha.
 
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Taki

Taki

Specialist
Jul 30, 2019
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Never, thank god. Which, if I were an actor, should have earned me an Oscar. I've been to EDs many times for related problems but escaped admission. From what I can tell that would have made things worse for me.
 
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LonelyLight

Warlock
May 31, 2019
779
Exactly what I'm talking about.
I just wasn't crazy enough to qualify.
But the crazy ones are sent right back on out there to continue swallowing batteries or boiling people alive!
That girl I mentioned was sent right back home as the sole carer of her kids despite the ongoing advice from zombies to harm them. It's a disaster waiting to happen.
Jesus that really is. Her kids dont sound safe with her if she is having thoughts like that!! Not even funny but what if she thought one of them was a zombie? Systems a joke!
Hmm I'm in the US and I had a somewhat similar experience when a hospital refused to take me because I attempted in the hospital. That sounds a bit odd to me in terms of reasons but who knows lmao - I guess they have like a standard for when something is too much too handle.

I wish I could get insight on what's up with that haha.
Yep it seems like it, I mean she did a lot more than just the boiling water but that was the boiling point, no pun intended, on her situation that got her locked up, some petty theft and threatening shop assistants with scissors.. I think she only did it all to get help but cant sympathise with the fact she scarred someone for life with the water.
 
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Morphosis

Experienced
Sep 22, 2019
260
Jesus that really is. Her kids dont sound safe with her if she is having thoughts like that!! Not even funny but what if she thought one of them was a zombie? Systems a joke!
It wouldn't surprise me if she did. But the zombies are telling her to harm the kids which is bad enough. She's definitely a nutcase of the whole hazelnut variety and a perfect example of why the system doesn't work.
Still, she made me look perfectly "sane" (since I was only harming myself) so I suppose I have to thank her for that :pfff:
 
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LonelyLight

Warlock
May 31, 2019
779
Christ... I'm speechless really. And that says it all "only harming yourself" it's sad to say self harm is not a priority in this country. I could rant about this all day I really could lol. I hope your having a nice day :hug:
@Morphosis Christ... I'm speechless really. And that says it all "only harming yourself" it's sad to say self harm is not a priority in this country. I could rant about this all day I really could lol. I hope your having a nice day :hug:
 
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TotallyIsolated

Mage
Nov 25, 2019
590
Impostor syndrome kicking in here. Am I allowed to feel suicidal if I haven't even been hospitalised?

Never actually stayed on a ward, but a friend had me sectioned and I spent a few hours in a waiting room in the middle of the night until a psychiatrist could be summoned - he just sent me straight home again. "Theres nothing we can do for you". It was a relief, but part of me feels like I'm not *really* depressed, or that I dont have it bad enough, because of that.
 
NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
Impostor syndrome kicking in here. Am I allowed to feel suicidal if I haven't even been hospitalised?

Never actually stayed on a ward, but a friend had me sectioned and I spent a few hours in a waiting room in the middle of the night until a psychiatrist could be summoned - he just sent me straight home again. "Theres nothing we can do for you". It was a relief, but part of me feels like I'm not *really* depressed, or that I dont have it bad enough, because of that.

Seeing as to how it's not a competition, I'd say in my own opinion, yes you are allowed to feel suicidal without having been hospitalized. As I told someone else in a different thread. "Different strokes for different folks'.
 
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webancverba

Member
Nov 24, 2019
14
Never, but I've also been careful with what I tell psychs. Very nearly got hospitalized when I wasn't careful a few weeks back
 
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lowres

Scum
Feb 9, 2019
119
I've been to the hospital for mental health stuff three times, almost a fourth but the doc thought i was safe enough (probably the closest i ever got to doing something dangerous to myself that time though). oddly enough i was only in the actual psych ward once for my second time. I went pediatrics first (psych was full, i was 15), Adolescent Psych (16) and then i got apprehended put into an overflow/short stay unit (17) which was technically just geriatrics which was weird and miserable. I got to see the full circle of life in the most miserable environment possible.
 
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WilliamKline

Flâneur
Sep 16, 2019
135
I've been to the hospital for mental health stuff three times, almost a fourth but the doc thought i was safe enough (probably the closest i ever got to doing something dangerous to myself that time though). oddly enough i was only in the actual psych ward once for my second time. I went pediatrics first (psych was full, i was 15), Adolescent Psych (16) and then i got apprehended put into an overflow/short stay unit (17) which was technically just geriatrics which was weird and miserable. I got to see the full circle of life in the most miserable environment possible.

Elton John could've written a song about it ;)
 
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Sideswipe

Sideswipe

I have 2 Simian Palms... DNA is F@£ked
Nov 20, 2019
208
Same as me @LonelyLight. I think you might be from the same country as me and from what I've seen, I think you have to be more or less completely batshit crazy here and at risk of harming others as well as yourself. There just aren't enough beds. I've had 3 serious attempts and was just referred for counselling with the suicide prevention folk but wasn't even considered as an inpatient.
A girl I know from the same town has been sectioned 4 times this year but she was seeing visions of zombies who were telling her to harm her kids.
Little old me was considered perfectly sane and rational in comparison.

That's dreadful..... treating you like a criminal and beating you up?!
That would cause anybody to go nuts.
I love your signature by the way... I prefer animals too.


I'm part of the era where borderline was seen as you just being a petulant child. It was believed that we were all just attention seekers so the abuse was to "put you off" "acting up" so to speak, treated like an outcast and held in positions intended to cause long term harm like broken wrists etc,,, The new laws around MH now tho are so different. The system is still crap, just don't get beaten up anymore lol!
I have a really good adult social worker as my care coordinator atm and she covers my back A LOT to prevent me being put into hospital.
Thanks for the com on my sig too :) I only did it recently as still finding my way around
 
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Elias

Experienced
Mar 19, 2019
216
2 times now, 1 time in August after a psychotic break, and second time very recently. I got discharged last thursday against medical advice, that was an emergency. None of these times helped.
 
Moonicide

Moonicide

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Nov 19, 2019
802
Never, but I have done Partial Hospitalization which is basically inpatient, but you get to go home. Did that for a month, then stepped down to Intensive Outpatient Program. Did that for 3 whole months. And now here I am.
 
BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
Hmm. Have to think.
3 times psych ward as a young teenager and 1 youth home.
Then 3 times psychward in my adult years and 2 rehabs.
Most stays ranged from a couple of weeks to a few months.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
Never but I should have been hospitalized During my worse stage. I put others at risk with my behavior. I regret it. I was truly a danger to myself and others
 
chlorine

chlorine

I am free, therefore I am lost.
Apr 12, 2019
217
Never but I should have been hospitalized During my worse stage. I put others at risk with my behavior. I regret it. I was truly a danger to myself and others
I'm which way were you dangerous? Did you have a diagnosis?
 
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ClonesAnnoyMe

Student
Feb 7, 2020
134
Never but I should have been hospitalized During my worse stage. I put others at risk with my behavior. I regret it. I was truly a danger to myself and others

You sound very responsible
Do you mind sharing about your life?
I would love to help you find good things ab yourself
 
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chlorine

I am free, therefore I am lost.
Apr 12, 2019
217
Pedriatic hospitalization: honestly don't remember, might be seven or so
Psych ward hospitalization: three times. First time one month and a half stay, second time three months stay and third time here I am
 

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