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IWillSurvive
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- Aug 28, 2023
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I think I could be considered one of the "faking it" people. I have made no attempts and I am not planning on doing it any time soon. I cant ctb because I have family that I dont want to leave behind. I do think about it every day obsessively, and I do believe that there is no way where I will be able to want to stay. But since I just think about it and I have no intention of making an attempt until Im alone, I have been told that I may just be faking it or something similar.This occurred to me because I know there are quite a few people who attempt suicide that don't really want to die. They are screaming for help and because they're hurting make a half ass attempt.
I also wonder what the actual death rate is of people who post here about wanting to die. Is there a buddy recommendation or rule that if you decide to finalize your decision you let them know so some kind of tracking can be made? I think that would be a good idea. This is a particular dark subject and suggestion but I'm curious how many people really don't want to die but post about it for whatever reason between a person laugh to believing they do only to realize it was a lackadaisical thought they became obsessed about.
My main reason for being here is because the few times that I feel something real tends to be around my desire to end it, so seeing conversation around it helps me get out of the numbness.
I also understand how some people may be making attempts for atention as you said, but I'm not one to glorify "pure" suicidal desire. People have different reasons why they come here, but if they got here I imagine there is something wrong enough with them that they deserve some understanding, and at least we shouldnt diminish them. I am not planning on organizing some suffering olympics.