BlazingBob
I'm still here b/c of my dogs
- Oct 28, 2021
- 601
I've been battling depression since 1989. I'm 51 and it's the absolute worst it's ever been. I can barely get out of bed and struggle greatly with self care and feeding myself. I've taken countless medications, done TMS and ketamine infusions, hundreds of hours of therapy of all types with tons of different therapists, and too many other things to mention. This is not a choice. It's not a matter of motivation or lack thereof. It's an absolutely horrible way to live. Who the hell would choose this? I've tried so damn hard and for so long. It's a huge driver for my ctb. I'm trying to hold on for my dogs but I don't know how much longer I can take this. I'm just wondering how many others are currently experiencing this. I feel so damn alone.