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Daffodil
Student
- Dec 23, 2019
- 130
I don't want to die. I want things to get better. It's almost like I have intrusive thoughts. I'll randomly think "you're going to kill yourself" throughout the day. "This might be one of the last times you speak to this person." "You're going to die soon." See a hotel "remember you're going to die in a hotel." When I try to sleep I imagine poisoning myself, and it's unpleasant. I don't want to die, but it's like the world is conspiring against me. Something doesn't want me here. I'm going to keep trying for now, but I'm afraid I'm going to kill myself soon. I don't want to die until I'm much older, but I can only take so much suffering.