How many of you are wanting to get n but it's too hard and are going with sn instead

[Ta555]

@redwaymilk any inert gas would do.

Chances of that happening are very low.

I know :) but I'm extra extra cautious.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I bought N back in 2015 and it arrived. Both bottles and the antiemetic.
I would purchase it again, but I'm holding out hope someone with a powdered form of N will show up.

SN is pretty low on my methods of choice and would only use that as a last resort method.

Do you still have it? It would still be effective today

 

[intheweeds]

Do you still have it? It would still be effective today

I don't. Popped the antiemetic, and poured both bottles into a cup. Once it came time to drink it I couldn't bring myself to do it and instead had a panic attack, cried, and poured it out.

Thought I was capable of going through with it, but I guess I was wrong.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I don't. Popped the antiemetic, and poured both bottles into a cup. Once it came time to drink it I couldn't bring myself to do it and instead had a panic attack, cried, and poured it out.

Thought I was capable of going through with it, but I guess I was wrong.

Damn, SI must've been strong. And almost 7 years later you're still here. How do you keep pushing on?

 

[intheweeds]

Damn, SI must've been strong. And almost 7 years later you're still here. How do you keep pushing on?

I guess the hope that maybe things could improve, and I'm getting older and they haven't. I just keep telling myself "how long are you really going to hold on for?".

I don't know the answer to that but it doesn't seem like it will be much longer

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I guess the hope that maybe things could improve, and I'm getting older and they haven't. I just keep telling myself "how long are you really going to hold on for?".

I don't know the answer to that but it doesn't seem like it will be much longer

Sorry to hear that. In hindsight, do you regret not taking the N? Was there anything worth living for in those years?

 

[intheweeds]

Sorry to hear that. In hindsight, do you regret not taking the N? Was there anything worth living for in those years?

I don't regret not taking it, but I do regret wasting it. I have a lot of anxiety about not having a peaceful method available to me. Like what if they stop selling it? Or what if customs gets more strict? The idea of not being able to purchase it scares the shit out of me. With that said I'll probably put in another purchase just to have it. I find it comforting knowing that I have it in my home.

And yeah, there were a few things worth living for during those years, and a lot not worth living for but nothing significant enough to get rid of the suicidal ideation.

 

[I-can-only-imagine]

me. I cannot get N into my country (australia) but got SN posted. It was checked by customs and then cleared

 

[nico1420]

my problem wouldn't be paying but i really worry about not getin' the stuff...i made the mimic of bying N via DW and when ever i got to the checkout they said that it was likely to be witheld by customs so, even if i prefer that to sn, i wouldnt risk losing the money like that...

 

[PeacefulTonic]

my problem wouldn't be paying but i really worry about not getin' the stuff...i made the mimic of bying N via DW and when ever i got to the checkout they said that it was likely to be witheld by customs so, even if i prefer that to sn, i wouldnt risk losing the money like that...

DW as in dark web? Yeah there's no legit sellers on there. If you're talking about D, he ships everywhere. Why does money matter anymore if you're trying to ctb?

 

[Dot]

Ok. You scared me into getting N.

Frm anthr thrd:

"The fact that SN is converted into Nitric Oxide which prevents Hypoxic-Ischaemic brain injury is what caused most people who survived SN are now still able to live a functioning life. Keyword most. Compared to hanging and other hypoxia-inducing methods, SN is the only method who can keep your brain intact long enough to make sure no one accidentally finds you when you're already brain dead but your heart isn't.

Most people get saved a few hours after ingesting SN, meaning that by the time they get taken to the hospital, their brains are still protected.

If you're found minutes after hanging or exit bag, you have a much higher chance of getting brain injury because there is no chemical that protects your brain for some time. That's why death by SN could take up to 8 hours, and within that time if you're saved, you'll be fine like the most of SN survivors today."

 

[nico1420]

DW as in dark web? Yeah there's no legit sellers on there. If you're talking about D, he ships everywhere. Why does money matter anymore if you're trying to ctb?

not about money really maybe i miss explained, i am not what you call rich and if i loose what little i have i may not get another chance, see what i mean? the money represents my means of ctbing and if i loose my potential i am done for

 

[PeacefulTonic]

not about money really maybe i miss explained, i am not what you call rich and if i loose what little i have i may not get another chance, see what i mean? the money represents my means of ctbing and if i loose my potential i am done for

Where are you located?

 

[Samsara]

Yes, could probably get N in early 2022 but probably don't want to wait that long

 

[nico1420]

Where are you located

south america

 

[Lost Magic]

I had SN and all the pills to go along with it, but when I saw an offer to buy N from D I couldn't resist it. Lucky it all worked out and I have my N bottles in a cupboard. I would have been okay taking SN, but it is always going to be second to the holy grail of exits.

 

[gr1lledcheese]

For me personally it's hard for me to understand btc stuff and how to make it work, but I am still trying by looking and researching but still having a hard time so sn just seems easier, I was wondering if anyone else is and for other reasons

I would love to get N, but it was easier to find SN so that's what I bought.

 

[Graytaichi]

I cant. Custom would ask me what is that and i be placed in a psy ward

 

[death137]

I can't even get SN let alone N. I'm being forced to use full suspension.

 

[LostAllHope88]

I didn't know about N until my finances were too depleted to purchase it, so I went with SN because I could comfortably charge it (plus it's much cheaper).

I realized this week it probably won't be nearly as peaceful/comfortable as N after doing a lot more research on successful attempts, but when I think of all the other painful ways one could die I remind myself it's actually still a pretty great alternative

 

[dissociation_statio]

I can't afford N, or I would definitely be seeking that out. I'm disabled and have a scrawny income, so SN here I come.

I didn't know about N until my finances were too depleted to purchase it, so I went with SN because I could comfortably charge it (plus it's much cheaper).

I realized this week it probably won't be nearly as peaceful/comfortable as N after doing a lot more research on successful attempts, but when I think of all the other painful ways one could die I remind myself it's actually still a pretty great alternative

How much worse is it supposed to be?

 

[Itsbeenalongtime]

I would love to use N and could afford it, plus Ive used btc before years ago for other stuff. My issue is I doubt I'd be able to swallow it. Or I'd get one gulp down and pass out before I could take the rest (bc it would be hard for me to mentally prepare to swallow more) thereby foiling my attempt, getting found, and put back on high supervision.
Unless i found a shmuck to inject me with the stuff I have big doubts on my own N success, therefore SN seems like the only option

 

[Bitterman1996]

For me personally it's hard for me to understand btc stuff and how to make it work, but I am still trying by looking and researching but still having a hard time so sn just seems easier, I was wondering if anyone else is and for other reasons

No money + sn seems to be unregulated and cheap here..

 

[MIAmartian]

For me personally it's hard for me to understand btc stuff and how to make it work, but I am still trying by looking and researching but still having a hard time so sn just seems easier, I was wondering if anyone else is and for other reasons

Reddits R/cash4cash will be your bestfriend for plenty of things including buying N anonymously and it's not hard to find a trustworthy professional to exchange with on there either so as long as you have the funds to cover the cost of N and the % rate they charge to do the exchange you can just send them the money and provide a btc address (they can even send the money directly to the Btc address of whoever your buying the N from if you give it to them) and wallah.