How many of you are bipolar?

[fayth2567]

Hi everyone,
Just wondering how many suicidal bipolar people are on here. I am one myself, bipolar 2.
I had a good life prior to bipolar onset. If you want to share your bipolar story that would be greatly appreciated.
Please and thank you.

 

[Wannagonow]

I'm bipolar. Diagnosed over 30 years ago. (Also have a few other labels).

 

[fayth2567]

I'm bipolar. Diagnosed over 30 years ago. (Also have a few other labels).

How has it been for you?

 

[Wannagonow]

How has it been for you?

Terrible.

 

[fayth2567]

Terrible.

 

[beingfree]

Recently diagnosed, but I've known something was wrong with me since forever. Used to be a happy kid, it all went downhill once puberty hit, I guess it unlocked my mental health issues.

On meds since recently. I've decided to give them a chance, but in the meantime I'm planning my suicide. Im less suicidal on the meds, but still think that I'll go once I'm confident with my method.

 

[jodes2]

I was diagnosed with bipolar 20 years ago, but I think they changed their minds about 10 years ago

 

[ISeeDarkness]

I have bipolar type schizoaffective. It's pretty fucking terrible.

 

[fayth2567]

I have bipolar type schizoaffective. It's pretty fucking terrible.

Im sorry to hear that

 

[BipolarExpress]

I have type I bipolar, diagnosed this year, hence the username.

 

[existenceispain88]

Type 2 bipolar here. Ctb is inavoidable I guess.

 

[Iamchickenhat]

I don't know which bipolar I am. They just say I'm smi bipolar. For those of you not in the desert southwest of the United States, that stands for severely mentally ill bipolar. If I hadn't gotten a dog in February I'd be gone by now

 

[dtjb]

Type 2 and getting worse the older I get

 

[TheCrowCalls]

Bipolar type one diagnosed 1 year ago. Two psychotic episodes destroyed the fuck out of my life. I'm traumatized by it and depressed situationally now. My brain still feels fucked and I have not been able to interact well socially after those episodes.

 

[BipolarExpress]

Bipolar type one diagnosed 1 year ago. Two psychotic episodes destroyed the fuck out of my life. I'm traumatized by it and depressed situationally now. My brain still feels fucked and I have not been able to interact well socially after those episodes.

My manic/psychotic episode traumatised me, too. It's been about six months after my episode ended, and I can't stop thinking about it and how it ruined several parts of my life. It's part of why I'm suicidal now, though there are a lot of reasons why I've been contemplating suicide.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I am bipolar 2 :-)

I don't know which bipolar I am. They just say I'm smi bipolar. For those of you not in the desert southwest of the United States, that stands for severely mentally ill bipolar. If I hadn't gotten a dog in February I'd be gone by now

I also got a dog <3

 

[rationaltake]

Been bipolar forever it seems. I'm old. Got other conditions too. I have "severe and enduring" mental illness which basically means I'm fucked. My life has been hell and is only getting worse.

 

[thebloodofreptile]

Diagnosed bipolar at 15. Been a downward spiral ever since.

 

[TheCrowCalls]

My manic/psychotic episode traumatised me, too. It's been about six months after my episode ended, and I can't stop thinking about it and how it ruined several parts of my life. It's part of why I'm suicidal now, though there are a lot of reasons why I've been contemplating suicide.

I'm here if u ever wanna talk about it :)

 

[ScottPilgram]

Got diagnosed like this year or last I think. Been rough rough rough. I had a breakdown at work and almost drove my car into a lake. immedietly after I sought out a psychiatrist or whatever.... got diagnosed with Bipolar 2. My emotions are so fucked, it's a little more regulated with meds but the depressions gotten bad again lately.

 

[godhelpme313]

That's what they say I have but I see it as periods of "angels" against godlessness. I'm OK when spirits are animating but when nihilism strikes I am in trouble. I lose my theology. I either see God (and sometimes the Creator speaks to me) or I see a vacuum. I'm close to dying, I really need the "stars" to save me. I read a lot of Greek and ancient philosophy, that's why I talk like this. I think theology was a mind discipline thousands of years ago but it was lost. Now the "God" and "angel" people are just seen as ludicrous, but I think it's just another form of a struggle for meaning. When I'm seeing the spirits then I know God has a plan for me, I'll sell a million records, etc. When God disappears I imagine finding myself dead in a gutter with a hole in my skull. It's quite a trip to bounce between the two, sometimes multiple flips in a single day.

 

[byebyered]

My manic/psychotic episode traumatised me, too. It's been about six months after my episode ended, and I can't stop thinking about it and how it ruined several parts of my life. It's part of why I'm suicidal now, though there are a lot of reasons why I've been contemplating suicide.

What happened during your episode if you don't mind me asking ? I don't have a lot of knowledge about bipolar disorder.

 

[freedompass]

Hi everyone,
Just wondering how many suicidal bipolar people are on here. I am one myself, bipolar 2.
I had a good life prior to bipolar onset. If you want to share your bipolar story that would be greatly appreciated.
Please and thank you.

I have a diagnosis of bipolar 1. I would not say 'I am bipolar' because I am not the condition. It was hardcore in the past with many many involuntary hospitalisations. We're talking batshit crazy here.

I'm still on 150mg of lamotrigine daily and doing extremely well these days. Stress seems to be a major trigger and I have very little of that. Perhaps it is a journey. Rather than set in stone that because you have this you are helpless and doomed.

 

[purplehearted]

bipolar 2, diagnosed at 21, it fucking sucks. every day feels like a nightmare since i cant even be bothered to take my meds. i got diagnosed after being hospitalised from a suicide attempt. ctb will be my way out as im incapable of living a healthy life

 

[matthew00057]

yes, bipolar 2. I was pretty much fine as a child although always an empath and HSP. it didnt affect me until i was in my late teens after puberty was finished. then, woah. Got thru college despite two major depressive episodes. Then finally got diagnosed in medical school and had to take a prolonged medical leave for bipolar-depression. I don't mind the hypomanic phases. I can work relentlessly like a machine and have been very successful in life because of it. But then a loss in life, usually a break up with a girlfriend, can put me into a body paralyzing depression like a switch got flicked and i can immediately become unable to function. The bipolar-depression is severe and prolonged and exhausting and has cost me years of my life

 

[iknowwhatyouredoing]

bipolar 2, i've been suspicious that i have it since i was 14 but my parents always told me i was being melodramatic or whatever, cut to 8 years later and i get officially diagnosed

 

[nameeater]

I have (suspected) schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type if that counts. ^^

 

[TimetoGo!]

Symptoms - Bipolar disorder

Bipolar disorder is characterised by extreme mood swings. These can range from extreme highs (mania) to extreme lows (depression).
Episodes of mania and depression often last for several weeks or months.

Depression

During a period of depression, your symptoms may include:

• feeling sad, hopeless or irritable most of the time
• lacking energy
• difficulty concentrating and remembering things
• loss of interest in everyday activities
• feelings of emptiness or worthlessness
• feelings of guilt and despair
• feeling pessimistic about everything
• self-doubt
• being delusional, having hallucinations and disturbed or illogical thinking
• lack of appetite
• difficulty sleeping
• waking up early
• suicidal thoughts

Think I must have it then!!

 

[morgzfreeman2345]

I feel you there. It's crazy how just a couple of situations can fuck everything up so quickly.

Bipolar type one diagnosed 1 year ago. Two psychotic episodes destroyed the fuck out of my life. I'm traumatized by it and depressed situationally now. My brain still feels fucked and I have not been able to interact well socially after those episodes.

yes, bipolar 2. I was pretty much fine as a child although always an empath and HSP. it didnt affect me until i was in my late teens after puberty was finished. then, woah. Got thru college despite two major depressive episodes. Then finally got diagnosed in medical school and had to take a prolonged medical leave for bipolar-depression. I don't mind the hypomanic phases. I can work relentlessly like a machine and have been very successful in life because of it. But then a loss in life, usually a break up with a girlfriend, can put me into a body paralyzing depression like a switch got flicked and i can immediately become unable to function. The bipolar-depression is severe and prolonged and exhausting and has cost me years of my life

I wish my hypomania worked like yours. Mine has taken me to some very delusional places. Mostly writing down insane goals in notebooks that I will never even come close to reaching. Finally had a big reality check when everything came crashing down.

 

[nosoul]

Bipolar constipated, abused dmt, now can't eat, sleep unless on benzos and other, scared family away. I just want to end it all:( these pills destroy you too. Lack of eat and sleep lost 30lbs last month trying to eat.

I had so much talent but now no kids all wasted because fried my brain.