Recently. I keep hearing my mom tell me that I need to drive (I still don't drive in my near mid-20s now at this point), need to cook certain stuff like meats (only know how to do some), need to get a job (because my mom dosen't work because needs to take care of a 24 year old person like me who still doesn't drive), among other reasons... I have done a bit of progress previously, but still have a long way to go to be truely independent (and might commit to reach those goals). Dosen't help that she told me that I was an accident, and was one of her reasons she quitted her job back in 1998...
On top, she's already burdened with my 2 brothers and her mom (my grandma) who dosen't love her and always talks shit to her 24/7, an unsupporting husband who still live with us and refuses to cooperate with the home responsibilities, and still can't manage too move out because she's still caring me! And for more, we are in a tight economic situation with the inflation that we are going through in these moments and have to only rely on food stamps to feed me and my brothers each month...
I can sometimes wonder why she been suffering so much, and yet still didn't fall into something like depression... a very resilient woman for sure...
I tell her to go seek help since she has so much burden, but keeps commited to taking care of me, and thay she will not get a job until I learn all of the independent life skills.
Even if I can understand some parts of her reasons, that is actually making me think that I'm a huge burden to her. If I was gone, she would have less burden off her shoulders but will have to eternally bear the trauma if I was actually gone.
