One door opens and more close while my body and mind ache and I see it's an up hill battle. You have to know some of us wanted to go earlier and had hope and held out, but that was dashed multiple times across years.
What do we have to hold on for? In this reality we are in dense bodies with a hope for a god we're conditioned to believe in. Meanwhile more than half the planet lives in poverty. It's isn't selfish to want to leave or wrong. Some have endured for years and decades. A soul gets exhausted and needs rest.
Rest from the motions of this planet and existing. Freedom from bondage or suffering. Someone should share what people who ctb say after they die and are contacted. It's not always what these people portray. Spirits on the other side know they were suffering and lend hands to heal them. Yes that could be fake like NDEs, but pain is understood for why someone wants to die and does it.
If you feel such things try to get help of course but holding on is no guarantee. It's prolonging existence.