How long have you been suicidal for? (poll)

[divinemistress36]

20 years and people still say bullshit stuff like it will get better...

 

[Reuthry]

I was passively suicidal for like 6-7 years, but I started to consider suicide more seriously. I have been like this for something like 5 years I suppose. But I don't plan to wait anymore lol, I had enough.

 

[DeathsShootingStar]

Since I was 7 years old. I remember my first suicidal thought & how to do it. I was scared. I was a child.

 

[Guy Smiley]

I've had suicidal ideation (on and off) for longer than a lot of people on this forum have been alive.

 

[MiMif]

In my case I cannot remember ever wanting to exist, I'm certainly not meant to exist in this cruel and disgusting world, existence itself is the true problem so for me it only makes sense wishing for the peace of eternal nothingness. Even when I was very young I found so much comfort in the thought of eternally ceasing to exist, I'll always see it as better to not exist no matter what.

unrelated to this but ive seen alot of your post. I just wanted to say the way you write is really nice you should consider writing poems or something.

 

[cold_severance]

from at least 10 till now, more than 15y already. though i didn't first attempt until way later.

 

[steppingoff]

Ever since I was a teenager - and my first failed attempt

 

[SMG08ABUSER]

Ever since I entered high school, it feels like everything changed in my mind. I no longer experienced happiness like I used to. Even when I do feel a remote sense of happiness, it is only for very brief moments before the emptiness and suicidal thoughts flood back into my mind.

I'm trying to muster the courage to finally get rid of my SI. It's so annoying how my brain keeps trying to keep me alive when I already know I am destined to a life of never ending loneliness, emptiness, and depression if I don't CTB while I am still young. I am absolutely sure of that fact.

 

[SassyGirl52]

I had my first attempt to CTB when I was 16 and ended up in the hosp. for several days. I'm now 52. So 36 years.