How long ago was last time you made a serious attempt to ctb ?

[Gypped]

My problems are quiet recent i have not attempted yet.
How long ago was last time you made a serious attempt to ctb ?

 

[hikikomori]

i tried last may and iv had everything dangerous taken away i ve thought about jumping infront of a car alot tho if thats what you mean mt attempts

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Two years ago.

 

[Sick Boy]

Four years ago partial suspensión

 

[jaemus12]

Last year. I made a serious but not so serious attempt because I was desperate and dumb af. I used a plastic bag and taped my arms. Survival instinct won within 10 seconds...

Fuck me.

 

[Final Escape]

This summer I was close and had everything ready. Then something unexpected threw my plans off and so I'm preparing yet again.

 

[littlelungs]

Two months ago. I don't remember much because the hospital drugged me up on antipsychotics and Ativan in the psych ward after I'd been medically cleared, but I know that there was an ambulance involved and that I was treated like a complete and total INFANT by the hospital staff.

I will do whatever it takes to ensure that I don't survive my next attempt. I want out.

 

[TiredHorse]

I was treated like a complete and total INFANT by the hospital staff.

Aiee! That sounds awful.

About 44 hours since my last attempt. F$#@ing survival instinct kicked in before I could black out. At least with eb/N2 there aren't any sequellae; it's pass/fail.

 

[Trashcan]

Monday but I didn't need to go to the hospital. Hopefully with the exit bag, it won't be an attempt.

 

[worldexploder]

Around February 2016. My first attempt was in on September 4, 2015.

 

[OnlyMercy]

Haven't had an attempt yet. I'm already in pain, the least I could do is hold out for a relatively painless and peaceful exit.

I plan to do this once and do it right. I realise this is much easier said than done though.

 

[BurningLights]

A few months ago, tried to od on propanolol, went to feeling very calm knowing that I wouldnt wake. But here I am. Now I've planned, and am confident in my next attempt.

 

[sadsoul]

I tried partial suspension yesterday. It was probably my most serious attempt. I would have died if it hadn't been for this stupid little thing called survival instinct. The survival instinct is such a stubborn, irrational little hobgoblin messing with my brain.

 

[bag.of.cats]

Almost 2 months ago or so. I had the glass with SN mixture at my lips.

 

[skitliv]

March 2017, partial hanging

 

[Angel2018]

2 months ago. CO.

 

[Roph]

Over the summer, I tried partial in a hotel.

 

[dman12009]

A year ago, partial hanging

 

[ChickenAndPotatoes]

My problems are quiet recent i have not attempted yet.
How long ago was last time you made a serious attempt to ctb ?

Mine was January 2017. I hung myself from a boaters sign attached to the bottom of a bridge to where my lower body was submerged in a river once I let go. The cold water was a shock.

 

[RogueJuliet]

Not sure anymore... 8 years? I lost count of the attempts and gestures I made before I had enough knowledge and independence to do much more than land myself in a hospital.

I bought a house years ago, planning to kill myself in it if my ideation was not improved by less (toxic) family interaction and a better paying job, but I made a mistake; I fell in love. Unfortunately for me, my lover's genitals did not contain the cure for depression.

I should have killed myself before we married, not because I am unhappy to be married to him, but because it would have spared him the kind of suffering I dread to inflict. A dead girlfriend is at least a tad less horrific than a dead wife.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

Ive not seriously attempted yet, just a see what it feels like partial suspension trial. Ive od a few times but not to kill myself i just wasnt bothered if i woke up or not. I know too many people who make attempts for attention and i dont want to be one of those so ive waited, researched, set a date, tied up a few loose ends and thats its. Originally held on a psych ward with no leave but others were allowed out unescorted, the doctors responce to me was he thinks im more serious about wanting to die, they couldnt prove i have a mental health problem so i was released.

 

[TheLastTrip]

About 20 years ago (damn that makes me feel old to say that, lol). 4 serious attempts, 4 failures.

Now I am older and wiser, nothing but a bad batch of N will stop me now [insert evil laugh here]

 

[I’vehadenough]

Two months ago. I don't remember much because the hospital drugged me up on antipsychotics and Ativan in the psych ward after I'd been medically cleared, but I know that there was an ambulance involved and that I was treated like a complete and total INFANT by the hospital staff.

I will do whatever it takes to ensure that I don't survive my next attempt. I want out.

How did you try to ctb?

 

[I’vehadenough]

About 20 years ago (damn that makes me feel old to say that, lol). 4 serious attempts, 4 failures.

Now I am older and wiser, nothing but a bad batch of N will stop me now [insert evil laugh here]

What did you try?

 

[the-eternal]

early last year, my first time -- impulsively, half assedly attempted partial suspension but ended up backing out at the last second. i haven't had the courage since then to try again.

 

[Throwaway563078]

Two or three months ago. It was impulsive but I was so emotionally driven that I might have succeeded. But I was stopped. Before that I made an attempt a decade ago, also impulsive,swallowed a bunch of pills but nothing happened. Third times the charm

 

[I’vehadenough]

I tried partial suspension yesterday. It was probably my most serious attempt. I would have died if it hadn't been for this stupid little thing called survival instinct. The survival instinct is such a stubborn, irrational little hobgoblin messing with my brain.

That's why I think full would be easier

 

[TheLastTrip]

What did you try?

Injecting air into my veins, hanging with no rope (using a zip tie), paracetamol overdose and ingesting the chemicals from my chemistry set that had a 'fatal if swallowed' warning label on them.

I was like 10 for the chemical one though so in retrospect that probably wasn't going to give me more than a tummy ache.

 

[sadsoul]

That's why I think full would be easier

Probably, but it's difficult to find a place for full suspension. Partial suspension is fine but I feel like you need to be at least a little bit impulsive to overcome the survival instinct.

 

[I’vehadenough]

Probably, but it's difficult to find a place for full suspension. Partial suspension is fine but I feel like you need to be at least a little bit impulsive to overcome the survival instinct.

True. What if the ligature breaks halfway in the hanging, would you then be brain dead?