How lethal is SN really?

[suffering_mo_7]

I would have died if I had not panicked and called for help. I think if you keep it in for at least several minutes, you had been fasting, and it is actually pure the odds are pretty well in your favor. I'd say most failures are due to calling for help, and those that aren't either didn't have pure SN or miscalculated the dose. Vomiting too early can contribute, but I only kept mine down for 10 minutes and I still reached lethal levels of methemoglobemia. I had to get CPR. I know this is a bit of survivorship bias here, though.

Was the panic from the symptoms (tachycardia, difficulty breathing, etc)? Or from the realization that "oh shit. I'm not ready to die?"

 

[willitpass]

Was the panic from the symptoms (tachycardia, difficulty breathing, etc)? Or from the realization that "oh shit. I'm not ready to die?"

From the SI. In my goodbye thread people posted what I was saying in the chat at the time and I kept saying "I want to die but I don't think this will kill me". I'm not sure why I was so convinced of that, but SI, especially when hypoxic isn't exactly rational, it's just doing anything to save you. It was more psychological than physiological. I don't recall the distress being from the physical sensations, but it's been a long time so memories are pretty fuzzy anymore. The most accurate info would be from my goodbye thread.

 

[suffering_mo_7]

From the SI. In my goodbye thread people posted what I was saying in the chat at the time and I kept saying "I want to die but I don't think this will kill me". I'm not sure why I was so convinced of that, but SI, especially when hypoxic isn't exactly rational, it's just doing anything to save you. It was more psychological than physiological. I don't recall the distress being from the physical sensations, but it's been a long time so memories are pretty fuzzy anymore. The most accurate info would be from my goodbye thread.

I'm still considering the method but your experience of it did not come off to me as "peaceful" , nor quick, as many here like to claim. At one point, you described the pain of it as 6/10. Is it more peaceful to lighting yourself on fire? Or jumping from a bridge? Or getting run over by a train? Probably so...I guess "relatively" peaceful (as in relative to other methods) is probably how it should be described.... Maybe if you are more aware of what you are in for, and know kind of what to expect, it might be easier to withstand? Thanks for sharing your experience.

 

[willitpass]

I'm still considering the method but your experience of it did not come off to me as "peaceful" , nor quick, as many here like to claim. At one point, you described the pain of it as 6/10. Is it more peaceful to lighting yourself on fire? Or jumping from a bridge? Or getting run over by a train? Probably so...I guess "relatively" peaceful (as in relative to other methods) is probably how it should be described.... Maybe if you are more aware of what you are in for, and know kind of what to expect, it might be easier to withstand? Thanks for sharing your experience.

I have a pretty high pain tolerance. 6/10 wasn't too bad for me. My pain tolerance has only increased with time so I have a feeling if I were to take SN again I would rank the pain even lower.