Help how legit does my plan sound?

[black.dahlia]

im planning on attempting soon. i know i keep saying that and not doing it but i promise i mean it lol. my method is a regular tourniquet. i have no access to firearms and there is nothing in my house sturdy enough to hold my weight without breaking. this is the next best thing.
after reading about the night night method, i used that guide to find my "sweet spot" on my neck, but instead of using a ratchet on myself, i found a pair of old leggings and a wooden spoon laying around. (the idea i was going for is to look as inconspicuous as possible while also being functional) after speaking to a member here about a year ago that also left us this way, i think this has a decent shot, albeit not fancy. as also stated in The Last Five Acts, an emergency style tourniquet with household items has proven to work at least a couple times. so im not being totally stupid here.
because i cant do this anywhere but my house, id have to find a way to keep people from not only interrupting me during the act, but also not finding the body afterwards. id much rather the police find me than an unsuspecting household member. i was planning on locking the door i do it in, possibly barricade myself in the room a little bit, (our door knobs barely work) and leave a timed text message/ physical note on the door saying to call the police and not to come in.
after thinking on it nonstop, the most i can muster up for notes are just shitty apologies for basically everything i did, going past just the suicide. ill trash my journal, but keep a couple pages, so people have an idea on my mindset. the suicide should be enough indicator of my mental state already.
my date is still undecided. i feel like a good push to avoid SI would be to do it when my adrenaline is high and im in a crisis. my head is so clear and set on this i know itd be easy for SI to kick in during the act without an active strong motivator, so thats the best i got.
poke holes in this. say whats good about it and whats stupid. i need constructive criticism in this. my method isnt the most reliable, and im not in an ideal environment/situation a person dreams to ctb in. dont be needlessly mean, lol. i just want to do this right. thank you all.

 

[Arahant]

Slightly off-topic, but...

Wednesday Addams, is that you? :b

 

[Evelyn Lane]

im planning on attempting soon. i know i keep saying that and not doing it but i promise i mean it lol. my method is a regular tourniquet. i have no access to firearms and there is nothing in my house sturdy enough to hold my weight without breaking. this is the next best thing.
after reading about the night night method, i used that guide to find my "sweet spot" on my neck, but instead of using a ratchet on myself, i found a pair of old leggings and a wooden spoon laying around. (the idea i was going for is to look as inconspicuous as possible while also being functional) after speaking to a member here about a year ago that also left us this way, i think this has a decent shot, albeit not fancy. as also stated in The Last Five Acts, an emergency style tourniquet with household items has proven to work at least a couple times. so im not being totally stupid here.
because i cant do this anywhere but my house, id have to find a way to keep people from not only interrupting me during the act, but also not finding the body afterwards. id much rather the police find me than an unsuspecting household member. i was planning on locking the door i do it in, possibly barricade myself in the room a little bit, (our door knobs barely work) and leave a timed text message/ physical note on the door saying to call the police and not to come in.
after thinking on it nonstop, the most i can muster up for notes are just shitty apologies for basically everything i did, going past just the suicide. ill trash my journal, but keep a couple pages, so people have an idea on my mindset. the suicide should be enough indicator of my mental state already.
my date is still undecided. i feel like a good push to avoid SI would be to do it when my adrenaline is high and im in a crisis. my head is so clear and set on this i know itd be easy for SI to kick in during the act without an active strong motivator, so thats the best i got.
poke holes in this. say whats good about it and whats stupid. i need constructive criticism in this. my method isnt the most reliable, and im not in an ideal environment/situation a person dreams to ctb in. dont be needlessly mean, lol. i just want to do this right. thank you all.

Night-night is even less reliable than partial suspension hanging. You're setting yourself up for disappointment. Is there nothing outside your house that can support your weight?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Please consider NOT hanging yourself outside, as it will all but surely traumatize anyone who comes across you — @Evelyn Lane idk if this is YOUR personal plan (to hang outside) but please stop suggesting it to others over and over. OP, have you looked into partial at all vs the tourniquet method?

 

[Evelyn Lane]

Please consider NOT hanging yourself outside, as it will all but surely traumatize anyone who comes across you — @Evelyn Lane idk if this is YOUR personal plan (to hang outside) but please stop suggesting it to others over and over. OP, have you looked into partial at all vs the tourniquet method?

What's the matter? Why are you against me suggesting others to hang themselves outside? Is it against the rules or some shit? Not everyone cares about "traumatising" others. I will keep on saying what I believe is useful to others. Don't like it? Tough luck.
Some people might have been too fixated on the idea of dying in the comfort of their own home that they forget that other anchor points exist. Who wouldn't like to die at home? But not everyone has that option, you see. Also partial and tourniquet methods are so unreliable it's practically a waste of time.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

I'm pretty sure we all know trees exist.

 

[black.dahlia]

Please consider NOT hanging yourself outside, as it will all but surely traumatize anyone who comes across you — @Evelyn Lane idk if this is YOUR personal plan (to hang outside) but please stop suggesting it to others over and over. OP, have you looked into partial at all vs the tourniquet method?

its been a while since ive been on this account, but my plans have changed yeah lol. i just want to say right now that i wont be killing myself outside. it might be the way some people want to go but not me.
to expand a little bit; i have zero experience or access to firearms, and my house is super old. there are places i could see being able to hold my weight, but those places are out in the middle of the house. if i dont ctb in my room or a spare, itll have to be the bathroom. im not doing it in the middle of the living room or something.
the doorknobs are also over 60 years old, ive checked. i could def try and test the newer ones out though, but id have to get materials for partial.
also, ive been practicing the tourniquet method for a long time since that post ha ha, i know that on this forum people think it wont work and ill end up braindead, but in my personal opinion- i feel like people say that because of how difficult it is to figure out. the more i practice, the better plan i get. its weirdly touching to me how (even though people can be really rude in their delivery) that yall are concerned enough to tell me to find a different method. ive given myself a grace period, so ill look into partial as well absolutely. my choices have gotten less restricting, so im able to actually go outside and get the ropes that are needed and stuff.
but for the past couple of weeks ive devloped a way better plan for tourniquet by just practicing it over and over. im not in a rush to die, so i do it to calm me down and ground me, if that makes any sense? i have a way to get the rod to stay in place, and i found different ways to pad my neck so the skin doesnt pinch and the knot stays where its supposed to.
i know im weeks late and this is super long lol, my bad about that. but ive missed being able to freely talk about my ctb like this on here. im still open to chat, im way more mentally sound as of right now (best way to ctb!!)

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Does your house have an attic?

 

[black.dahlia]

Does your house have an attic?

it does, actually. really old but theres lights and im short enough to not have to constantly crawl around in it. i havent heard of ctbing in there, idk why it hasnt crossed my mind lol. maybe because of the smell or how hot it would be? not sure. is hanging common in attics?