Discussion How has SaSu benefited you? (ft. my experiences on SaSu over the years)

[TAW122]

As someone who has been on SaSu for more than half a decade (with a 1.5 year hiatus from early 2021 to mid 2022), I want to once again show my appreciation for the community here. There are many things that being on SaSu has been great for me and this thread will give my story as well as my experiences over the course of 6 years (including some brief major events over my duration of being on here). I've officially joined the SaSu platform/forum here a few months after it's founding (I joined near the end of August 2018, about almost 6 months after it was originally founded, which was in March 2018 right after shitty Reddit decided to censor and take down the SaSu and TrueSaSu subreddits). In addition to this, I feel that my expression and eloquence has improved when being on SaSu (perhaps from writing longform articles, threads, and even interacting with otehrs), and in addition to this, my knowledge of other topics and things have also improved (along with breaking some misconceptions and incorrect myths that were touted in mainstream society) especially when researching methods and understanding many things.

With that said, SaSu is like a secret home and community to me. It has brought me solace in one of the darkest times, has helped me find information and knowledge on methods of CTB, things to avoid pitfalls and such, helped me with some of my important goals, have camaraderie with people who understand me (or even if they don't, at least respect my stance and don't try to shun or project – unlike other platforms and spaces) and finally, most of all, no censorship over the most important, yet controversial topics (only controversial in mainstream society and many other circles, groups, and other spaces) which included CTB, the right to die, assisted death, mortality, and more. This place is really unique in that aspect that very few, if any other spaces (especially in modern day where mainstream spaces and circles are saturated with pro-life rhetoric and anti-choice rhetoric) allow for such open and good faith discussions. Yes, while the community has evolved and the [userbase] has changed in some way, it has still had good structures and regulations in place that keep a vulnerable and persecuted group of people (us pro-choicers) safe (presuming we follow the regulations and don't intentionally reveal sensitive information).

List of examples and instances where SaSu has helped me and what I've gained:
First thing is first, when researching on SaSu, especially learning the methods, it has allowed me to learn things that I normally would never have learned or was incorrect information based on mainstream circles (especially movies and just common, normie misconceptions). Some of these extra knowledge included learning about anatomy, like the annoying "medulla oblongata" (aka the 'brain stem') that is keeping one suffering and alive, and that if one is using a firearm to CTB, that is the golden target to hit. Another such example is learning about hypothermia as well as other less brutal methods. So one of the ancillary benefits of SaSu especially when studying methods to CTB is learning and gaining knowledge that can also be helpful in other fields if applicable such as science, biology, physics, and just general knowledge. Sometimes I get a feeling of small empowerment when I learn something or was able to debunk a myth (people who done the research and know the method versus what was purported in mainstream circles).

Another benefit was that some kind members back in 2019 helped me with one of my goals, which was to lose my virginity. They were able to recommend some good suggestions (yes I did end up 'paying for it' in a country that allowed legal sex work, and no shame, no regrets at all) and ultimately, it allowed me to see the end of 2019 rather than immediately check out either mid or late 2019. I love that aspect of our community, that the face that we are all here with a common factor, which is having CTB ideation and wanting to find methods to CT, there are other parts of the community that helped in other tangential but also important goals too.

And then there is of course (I know I already mentioned it before so I will try to be brief) the open discussion about CTB instead of the bad faith, anti-CTB rhetoric that is floated around many other mainstream circles and other spaces. In SaSu here, we are able to freely discuss the topic of CTB and of course method information/knowledge in depth without censorship and that is massive compared to other platforms and spaces where such discussion is forbidden or heavily restricted and even being blasted with CTB prevention or shunning of one's personal choice.

So with all that said, back to the main question, which is "How has SaSu (the community and the platform here) benefited you? It could be anything, whether small or big, indirect or direct, regardless of how long you have been on here. Feel free to give your stories and experiences in this thread. Finally, to close out this thread, I really appreciate the community we have here and this feels like a secret home to me where I am able to get away from the never-ending bombardment of pro-life rhetoric and programming that the real world has on a day to day basis.

 

[Eternal Eyes]

I met one of my best ever friends on this website, we still talk daily to this day and I'd like to think we have changed each others lives. Had I not met them God knows where I'd be now.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I came here in a desperate hunt for methods. I'm grateful to have that guidance, seeing as suicide has always been a real possibility for me and, if/ when the time comes, I want the best chances of not messing it up and, potentially maiming myself.

I applied for membership within a matter of minutes of reading one or two threads here because I immediately recognised it as a really amazing place to discuss really big subjects in an open and honest way with no holds on pessimism. I don't enjoy constant and strong push back the moment you start being your (gloomy) self around people. (I don't care if that's supposedly better for us.)

I've been incredibly grateful to this place, our mods and members here since. My intention is to wait until my Dad goes first, before I feel able to. So, it's long been a waiting game for me.

I have so much frustration and resentment building though. It's a relief to have somewhere I can vent it, without deeply hurting my loved ones. I also believe that old chesnut of 'tell someone' depends very much on the type of people you have around you.

Some simply won't cope with the news. They'll react in ways that is both devastating for them, and us. We see it here time and again. People being outright abandoned, shamed, bundled off to a psyche ward. Plus, it no doubt, deeply worries those we told. Perhaps that's ok if they can help but, what if they can't? What was the point of telling them? We've really only worried them then.

Thanks to Sasu, we have somewhere we can be open, honest and vulnerable and we (usually) receive peer support. It's overall, a very kind and caring community.

I also just really appreciate the distraction element to it. I spend equal time here in 'off topic', enjoying giving my brain something else to ponder on. I feel stuck here for an indeterminate period of time. I'm grateful to anything that makes that time more bearable for me.