I hate how we live in a world where if there's anything you should not feel it's because there's some chemical imbalance or bad upbringing or some mental disorder you have. I can't remember how many times I've asked people "why don't I feel wanted?" and "why does it feel like no one cares?" which they'll just answer with "you have abandonment issues" or you have *mental disorder*
It's no surprise though. You can see the exact same thing today's mental health industry. You can't open your mouth before the psychiatrists tells you you have some mental disorder and you got to take 240 different pills so you'll get "fixed".
They haven't ever thought about how if everyone you've ever talked to in your life has abandoned you, you will, whether you want to or not feel like no one cares about you. They won't tell teenagers who get bullied and abused that they're actually supposed to feel depressed and suicidal. Nah they'll just them that there's something wrong with them and pills will fix them.
Why do they do this? I think it's money coupled with this new age ideology that says "you shouldn't care about what anyone thinks". If no one cares about other people we'll eventually live in total anarchy. A society doesn't work without people who care about each other.
Like half my life I thought I could "fix" myself by taking pills every day and doing 4 hours of therapy every week. I always thought something was wrong with me. But there's nothing wrong with me. I'm not crazy because I think no one wants me or cares about me. No one does care or want me. No one has ever cared about me or ever wanted me.
So you're fed these lies your entire life and not 1 person tries to just tell you that your feelings are normal and that if you don't wanna be depressed you either have to improve on yourself or commit suicide. They won't tell you that in the real world no one does actually care. The reality is you'll always be liked for your looks or your money or how funny you are. When that's gone for everyone else YOU are gone.
All my fucking life I've tried to find just someone who cares about me. I let every single person I talk to treat me like shit. Just so that I wouldn't be alone. All of them eventually abandoned me and today I'm alone.
And I haven't been in a position where I want to abandon someone but if I'm sure that if I ever got there I just like every human on earth would choose to abandon. If you don't need something you'll leave it. If you don't need someone you'll leave them as well.
The only way for me to value myself is if people around me value me. And no one does. I won't get anyone to value me unless I am attractive or I have money.
So unless you're anti social you will have great problems in life if you don't have something people want from you. If you're normal like me you can open your eyes and see the world for what it is. Choose whether you wanna work hard to become the best version of yourself or if you're so sick of life you just wanna end it. But whatever you do and I mean this. Whatever you fucking do. Don't waste your time. You HAVE TO work on yourself constantly. Otherwise your life will run out of time and you'll only have the option of suicide. Please. DO. NOT. WASTE. YOUR. TIME.
It's no surprise though. You can see the exact same thing today's mental health industry. You can't open your mouth before the psychiatrists tells you you have some mental disorder and you got to take 240 different pills so you'll get "fixed".
They haven't ever thought about how if everyone you've ever talked to in your life has abandoned you, you will, whether you want to or not feel like no one cares about you. They won't tell teenagers who get bullied and abused that they're actually supposed to feel depressed and suicidal. Nah they'll just them that there's something wrong with them and pills will fix them.
Why do they do this? I think it's money coupled with this new age ideology that says "you shouldn't care about what anyone thinks". If no one cares about other people we'll eventually live in total anarchy. A society doesn't work without people who care about each other.
Like half my life I thought I could "fix" myself by taking pills every day and doing 4 hours of therapy every week. I always thought something was wrong with me. But there's nothing wrong with me. I'm not crazy because I think no one wants me or cares about me. No one does care or want me. No one has ever cared about me or ever wanted me.
So you're fed these lies your entire life and not 1 person tries to just tell you that your feelings are normal and that if you don't wanna be depressed you either have to improve on yourself or commit suicide. They won't tell you that in the real world no one does actually care. The reality is you'll always be liked for your looks or your money or how funny you are. When that's gone for everyone else YOU are gone.
All my fucking life I've tried to find just someone who cares about me. I let every single person I talk to treat me like shit. Just so that I wouldn't be alone. All of them eventually abandoned me and today I'm alone.
And I haven't been in a position where I want to abandon someone but if I'm sure that if I ever got there I just like every human on earth would choose to abandon. If you don't need something you'll leave it. If you don't need someone you'll leave them as well.
The only way for me to value myself is if people around me value me. And no one does. I won't get anyone to value me unless I am attractive or I have money.
So unless you're anti social you will have great problems in life if you don't have something people want from you. If you're normal like me you can open your eyes and see the world for what it is. Choose whether you wanna work hard to become the best version of yourself or if you're so sick of life you just wanna end it. But whatever you do and I mean this. Whatever you fucking do. Don't waste your time. You HAVE TO work on yourself constantly. Otherwise your life will run out of time and you'll only have the option of suicide. Please. DO. NOT. WASTE. YOUR. TIME.
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