How does your depression come is it constand,waves etc. I have noticed mine seems consistent. I can have a good time for a few moments and I mean moments then my brain clicks back. I start thinking about my kids and my wife and what my family is doing and it drags me down the rest of the day. It normally happens when I wake up. I wake up and my first thoughts are of them. I can not shake the memories or thoughts of what my boys and wife are doing.
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I never really reach a manic phase, I always tend to hover in a low state of depression, nothing extreme. I may get an instance of happiness, but it crashes down pretty quickly. I try not to let myself get happy because it's a curse in itself.
ZardozOmega
Narcissist Gay NEET-cel
- Mar 4, 2020
- 718
Mine usually comes up whenever I stop using the computer and when I'm forced to confront real life. Apart from that, I get depressed when I come across things on the computer that reminds me of real life.
My depression rears its ugly head only when I'm awake.
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Avyn
Experienced
- Jan 27, 2021
- 228
Mine is there all the time, if I am distracted and having fun doing something, it would just randomly come over me and make me feel shit.
It's hard to do simple things like getting out of bed, do dishes without getting so exhausted, every.single.day.
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
Up until today I haven't had that much depression but rather suicidality with some depressive features. Depression really knocked me the fuck out today, though. That's what I get for trying to accept my situation and go to the gym, I guess.
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spiderlily
Member
- Mar 2, 2021
- 33
Mine are more waves...some hit harder than others, and last weeks to months. In between, I typically feel relief or maybe even happiness for a bit. But I try not to let my guard down when I'm feeling better because depression never leaves. Like some others, it's often when reality and other people reenter my thoughts--my mind just can't get peace.
Sorry to hear that,its kicked my face off today too. For what it's worth I think you might be my favourite member on here (no homo.....unless....no). You have the perfect balance of humour and actual useful information.
Tomorrow will be better or some other cliched bullshit.
Mine was constant for many years at various degrees of severity,it hung around so long un-diagnosed that I just thought that's how life was. Then something happened that made me realise that I was ill.
I put a load of work in,went on meds and got a fair bit better with the occasional unexplained down day for years. The recent ending of my relationship has been a massive knock and right now my mindset is "What is the point in making all that effort to get better if I am just going to continually get knocked down again?". Couple that with being in my late thirties and not wanting to get old and Im now in a very dark place again.
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GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
Holy fucking shit, these compliments are like crack cocaine to me. You have no idea how much I like these, thank you! I genuinely remember the four compliments I've gotten on here. I can even list them from memory: 1. "You're funny sometimes and down to earth." 2. "You're fucking hilarious." 3. Tough to remember exact words but the guy said that I was one of the posters he enjoyed seeing in the threads. 4. This. Oh, there were some other similar stuff as well that I can't really place my finger on atm. One member said she'd miss me if I ctb'd. I really appreciate this sort of thing.
Says a lot about how my IRL situation is, I guess
I would agree with the above 4 comments. Im not really one for joining 'scenes' or 'communities' and this place can be very clicky. But I would put money on you being one of the most liked members of this forum.Holy fucking shit, these compliments are like crack cocaine to me. You have no idea how much I like these, thank you! I genuinely remember the four compliments I've gotten on here. I can even list them from memory: 1. "You're funny sometimes and down to earth." 2. "You're fucking hilarious." 3. Tough to remember exact words but the guy said that I was one of the posters he enjoyed seeing in the threads. 4. This. Oh, there were some other similar stuff as well that I can't really place my finger on atm. One member said she'd miss me if I ctb'd. I really appreciate this sort of thing.
Says a lot about how my IRL situation is, I guess
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
Come on, don't make me throw up with ecstasy over here. I don't think I am, lol, I post a lot of low effort cringe and constantly talk about myself.
Now you're just fishing for compliments,go fuck yourself
Edited to add - look at your reaction score. Case closed.
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
Mentalmick
IMHOTEP!!!
- Nov 30, 2020
- 2,050
My depression is there all the time I just sink further down randomly and it can last for months.
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
It's about the post:reaction ratio, man. Some cheat by hanging out in group chats and reaction-spamming each-other but still. My personal favourite SS member has a ridiculous ratio that I am amazed by. Don't think they cheated, either.
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
If I wanted to name them, I would've just said their name. Let the mystery fill you with awe.
I have been depressed my whole life. When I was a kid and teenager, I just thought it was normal. When I was 17, I had a friend with mental health issues and when she explained her symptoms I could relate to them all, that's when I first realised I had issues and it wasn't normal to just feel like shit all the time
Sensei
剣道家
- Nov 4, 2019
- 6,336
I get bipolar depressive episodes which last for about four months. Had them nonstop for almost three years before I came here. Quite a miracle that I'm still alive.
Choronzon
Member
- Sep 23, 2020
- 46
I have persistent depressive disorder (formerly the cooler-sounding "dysthymia"). My depression is always there. Not necessarily as a palpable funk, but just not really enjoying anything, or if I do, not for very long. I'm also extremely sensitive to setbacks, which will put me into double depression. Things being what they are, I have spent the last year in this condition. I sincerely do not understand how I am still alive.
bad luck
Memento mori
- Mar 2, 2021
- 772
GenesAndEnvironment
Autistic loser
- Jan 26, 2021
- 5,741
bad luck
Memento mori
- Mar 2, 2021
- 772
I have not drunk for 3 days. Maybe that's it. Anyway I need at least 4 liters to forget a little about my stupid life. But if I exceed 3 liters there will be a hangover, even if it is small.
My depression consists on extreme UPS AND DOWNS.
For example right now, I'm feeling like a boss but tomorrow I might feel like ctb.
You know, just my daily bipolar disorder lol.
For example right now, I'm feeling like a boss but tomorrow I might feel like ctb.
You know, just my daily bipolar disorder lol.
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Neowise
We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
- Oct 7, 2020
- 405
My symptoms are pretty similar. I'm pretty much never in a state where I lie in bed and no nothing all day but my depression is always around, just weaker or stronger. The worse phases of my depression come in waves, sometimes the waves have been triggered by an event or sometimes they just come without real cause.
I am somewhat afraid of times where I feel good because usually a phase of great happiness is followed by a phase of great depression. Actio = Reactio I guess so I just don't enjoy happiness too much.
BandAddict
Specialist
- Apr 3, 2019
- 338
Mine is pretty constant, but fluctuates in severity. Some weeks are spent in bed, mostly in deep, dark moods or hysterics. Then I feel like I reach a baseline for a bit. I can laugh, get things done around the house, hygiene might get a little better. As one person above me said, I feel uneasy when I'm doing better at all, because it's so short-lived and things can only go downhill after. So I'm on the fence and experience guilt for enjoying anything too much.
I'd say it's sort of like a rollercoaster, but with no steep inclines. Mostly falls and some slow cruising. Always a little lower than before, I think.
I'd say it's sort of like a rollercoaster, but with no steep inclines. Mostly falls and some slow cruising. Always a little lower than before, I think.
Into The Void
Student
- Mar 10, 2021
- 196
OnlyTheWind
Serena / Meatball head
- Aug 29, 2020
- 962
It shows up as soon as something is not working out or I'm not making the progress I feel I should be making. Usually, it will come on very fast and stay for several days until something "good" happens.
Spring and summer it seems lol. I feel depressed when bad things happen also, or if I feel very stressed and helpless. But in certain months, the bar for a "bad thing" is really high. During other times, a "bad thing" will be super minor, like my boss looking at me wrong or something.
TwoTenEightyEight
Knowing better hurts.
- Mar 7, 2021
- 43
It's waves for me and through the week. Weekends I plummet, then midweek comes with a mild lift. Either way, I'm still always in decline.
