xxAbigailxx
InLoveWithDeath
- Feb 8, 2023
- 66
For years I have had a suspicion that I was molested as a child and just can't remember it. A month or so ago I found out that I was right, it was my father (I know, clichee...) and he didn't just do it to me but also my oldest sister (and maybe my other sister too). Now the Epstein stuff is also currently a hot topic everywhere (as it should be!!) and it triggers me so hard. I seriously considered CTB again after years of not feeling actively suicidal anymore (passive moments were still happening).
Just the thought of living in a world where this stuff happens and people know of it and still nothing is being done because its people who have money and power that are doing these horrible things... it kills me. I have to actively prevent myself from thinking about it to be able to function at all and it makes me feel so damn guilty because we need to look! We need to talk about this and do something, but I can't handle it.
I think if I ever do it, I will take some of *them* with me, I will find a way. (For legal reasons, this is a joke... totally)
All these poor babies... I need you to know that I am suffering with you. I am sorry we didn't protect you enough, I am sorry the world is this fucked up place.
Just the thought of living in a world where this stuff happens and people know of it and still nothing is being done because its people who have money and power that are doing these horrible things... it kills me. I have to actively prevent myself from thinking about it to be able to function at all and it makes me feel so damn guilty because we need to look! We need to talk about this and do something, but I can't handle it.
I think if I ever do it, I will take some of *them* with me, I will find a way. (For legal reasons, this is a joke... totally)
All these poor babies... I need you to know that I am suffering with you. I am sorry we didn't protect you enough, I am sorry the world is this fucked up place.