Discussion How do you relate to the world ?

[On Replay]

For me, I'd be music. Lyrics , lyrics especially those.

And you ?

 

[Dead Meat]

I basically don't relate to this world at all I should have never been born I've never belonged here in the first place

 

[Zegers]

Like a Christmas ornament

 

[IntoTheLight]

Lost the ability to relate to the world this year.

 

[On Replay]

I basically don't relate to this world at all I should have never been born I've never belonged here in the first place

Me neither . I'm sending you hugs . Especially you , I've always recognized your name. From since I've joined. Thanks for always being nice

Like a Christmas ornament

Ugly and shining ? Lol I like ornaments so let me know what you mean okay

Lost the ability to relate to the world this year.

Why ?

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sad and heartbroken. I don't have a family. The only person I related to ctb a few months ago. There isn't much left for me.

 

[On Replay]

I'm sad and heartbroken. I don't have a family. The only person I related to ctb a few months ago. There isn't much left for me.

You're here ! And from what I remember and thought .. you weren't . I know that means nothing compared to family . But Hello !

Hearts are fragile , they break. Families are reckless, they're not always reliable.

But nevertheless, you keep going as long as you can okay ? As long as you can , as long as you see fit

 

[earshurt]

I don't lol. I've always felt like an alien trying to imitate human behavior and speech. Love to have autism, not.

 

[IntoTheLight]

Why ?

Made a series of stupid mistakes that in the end lead to unimaginable suffering. Akathisia and benzo withdrawal (from prescribed benzos). Possibly also serotonin syndrome that went undiagnosed and was classified as "anxiety and depression" by incompetent as fuck psychiatrists. I was in a complete stupor and not able to do anything but run in circles for 16 hours per day while not being able to tell anyone what is wrong. Doctors and family kept gaslighting me. Experiencing akathisia was the worst experience of my entire life and knowing that this experience is out there and goes unrecognized and undiagnosed every day made me lose all my connection to this world. It's chemical torture incomparable to anything else.

 

[On Replay]

I don't lol. I've always felt like an alien trying to imitate human behavior and speech. Love to have autism, not.

I don't either . But I love to sing to myself . If you love a long then sing , if not , give me one and I'd sing for you lol. I'm not too sure what autism is my definition. But I know many members of my family have ADD , ADHD ,

Can you explain to me what autism is ?

I've heard of the word but don't really know .

What do you like ?

Made a series of stupid mistakes that in the end lead to unimaginable suffering. Akathisia and benzo withdrawal (from prescribed benzos). Possibly also serotonin syndrome that went undiagnosed and was classified as "anxiety and depression" by incompetent as fuck psychiatrists. I was in a complete stupor and not able to do anything but run in circles for 16 hours per day while not being able to tell anyone what is wrong. Doctors and family kept gaslighting me. Experiencing akathisia was the worst experience of my entire life and knowing that this experience is out there and goes unrecognized and undiagnosed every day made me lose all my connection to this world. It's chemical torture incomparable to anything else.

Akathisia? What's that ? I've never heard

 

[IntoTheLight]

Akathisia? What's that ? I've never heard

Akathisia: What You Need To Know - RxISK

Akathisia is an emotional state caused by over 100 different drugs, primarily antidepressants and antipsychotics, but also antibiotics and others.

rxisk.org

It's a disorder that results from screwed up dopamine signaling in the brain. It's an inner terror that feels like a million bugs are crawling under your skin, non-stop. It's classified as a "movement disorder" but that's really a misconception. It leads to an insane urge to move, but that's only because moving is the only way to temporarily ease the absolute terror you're constantly experiencing. You can't sleep anymore either because you need to move constantly to not want to tear your own skin off. Since it's not a condition that naturally occurs we're also completely evolutionary unprepared to deal with it. At least with physical pain we have millions of years of evolution that gave us tools to deal with it. I'd take any physical pain over extreme akathisia any day.

 

[On Replay]

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Akathisia: What You Need To Know - RxISK

Akathisia is an emotional state caused by over 100 different drugs, primarily antidepressants and antipsychotics, but also antibiotics and others.

rxisk.org

It's a disorder that results from screwed up dopamine signaling in the brain. It's an inner terror that feels like a million bugs are crawling under your skin, non-stop. It's classified as a "movement disorder" but that's really a misconception. It leads to an insane urge to move, but that's only because moving is the only way to temporarily ease the absolute terror you're constantly experiencing. You can't sleep anymore either because you need to move constantly to not want to tear your own skin off. Since it's not a condition that naturally occurs we're also completely evolutionary unprepared to deal with it. At least with physical pain we have millions of years of evolution that gave us tools to deal with it. I'd take any physical pain over extreme akathisia any day.

Is there anything I can do do help relieve this? If not I'm sorry , I wish no one had to feel any pain. Life is hard enough , I wish I could make it better or at least ease

I didn't read anything 100% yet , but I will when I'm sober .

 

[IntoTheLight]

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Is there anything I can do do help relieve this? If not I'm sorry , I wish no one had to feel any pain. Life is hard enough , I wish I could make it better or at least ease

Not much anyone can do to relieve it unfortunately, all that helps is to wait until the nervous system heals. It's gotten much better by now luckily. But the experience completely broke me and left me unable to relate to the world or experience any joy.

 

[GrizzlyGrapefruit]

I used to relate to the world through music, listening to the stories of others, and getting lost in my own emotions.

Ever since I developed anhedonia, I've lost this though. I feel extremely disconnected from not only the world and others, but also myself. It's a harsh reality, and one that I didn't even know was humanly possible until experiencing it myself. It's a hell that you rarely hear about.

 

[akirat9]

i dont

 

[Hope:-)]

I love this world, but my circumstances mean I relate to it very poorly now.

 

[coyotestark]

I don't relate to it at all, I experience the world in third person. The only time I feel 'real' is if I'm loaded.

 

[On Replay]

I'm not enough. For everyone who has responded to this post , im sorry I couldn't heal your pain. And to tell on myself… I half ass read, I just know people were hurting and my drunk ass couldn't help. Im sorry . Im sending you all much love , please believe it because I mean it. All the love I have left goes to this forum , because y'all are the most real and honest and transparent people (besides myself) that I've encountered in this world .

 

[StolenLife]

Mutual dislike.

 

[IntoTheLight]

I used to relate to the world through music, listening to the stories of others, and getting lost in my own emotions.

Ever since I developed anhedonia, I've lost this though. I feel extremely disconnected from not only the world and others, but also myself. It's a harsh reality, and one that I didn't even know was humanly possible until experiencing it myself. It's a hell that you rarely hear about.

Anhedonia really is terrible. Makes you feel like a zombie. Strips away everything you thought was "you" and leaves an empty shell.

I'm not enough. For everyone who has responded to this post , im sorry I couldn't heal your pain. And to tell on myself… I half ass read, I just know people were hurting and my drunk ass couldn't help. Im sorry . Im sending you all much love , please believe it because I mean it. All the love I have left goes to this forum , because y'all are the most real and honest and transparent people (besides myself) that I've encountered in this world .

Sending love to you as well. You seem like a very compassionate person. Giving people the opportunity to vent in a thread like this is also helpful.

 

[On Replay]

Mutual dislike.

Explain . As I was about to type my next thought I need an explanation, so I can either hold it back , or go off

Whatcha mean ?

 

[StolenLife]

I meant it as i dislike the world and it dislikes me. It came out wrong sorry.

Explain . As I was about to type my next thought I need an explanation, so I can either hold it back , or go off

Whatcha mean ?

I meant I dislike the world and it dislikes me. It came out wrong sorry english is not my first language.

 

[theboy]

Bad

 

[On Replay]

I meant it as i dislike the world and it dislikes me. It came out wrong sorry.

I meant I dislike the world and it dislikes me. It came out wrong sorry english is not my first language.

No No , it's okay. I apologize myself. Don't mind me please … I feel very bad now …

I'm just too fierce. Only because I saw everyone who commented , and I was ready to protect against anyone who went against how they felt (not good I know)

When I'm vulnerable I only think of others who feel the same way. So I'm sorry

I meant it as i dislike the world and it dislikes me. It came out wrong sorry.

I meant I dislike the world and it dislikes me. It came out wrong sorry english is not my first language.

Oh nooooo ! I'm super sorry to you ! I recognize your name and profile too. I'm really sorry . I just don't like others being mistreated and I'm too quick to react . You've always been kind
Anyone who reads this forgive me please :(

I'm just a "bulldog" sometimes. When I think of hurt I think of me and my best friend, and I think of how I have to protect her … I'm really sorry

 

[CTB Dream]

Never relate, mayb before different now injury damage brain not mach body feel out place ,disconnected everything even self ,no connect anything real torture not know explain how, exist out place 0 connect, this really end all connect go , need leave world soon possible

 

[Sarz]

I basically don't relate to this world at all I should have never been born I've never belonged here in the first place

Wow! My words exactly.. never asked to be born with a life full of suffering.

 

[Hirokami]

I don't. I'm legit tired of dealing with NPCs and talking with people irl is exhausting, anyhow.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I can't relate to this world, anymore. I just don't get it, and it's been obvious for 2-1/2 decades at least, that it doesn't get me, either.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't relate to anything or anyone, there is nothing here for me in this world and there never could be. Everything in this world just makes me feel more alone but of course it's for the best to be alone. This is the way that it's always been. I don't want to belong in this world anyway, I have a strong dislike for life itself as to me life is nothing more than a cruel mistake. The existence of life really is so horrifying.

 

[makethepainstop]

How do I relate to the world? POORLY!