ocean poem

ocean poem

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Mar 21, 2021
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Since I was a kid I developed this what I think can call a habit where I refer to myself as we, but only when Im talking to myself in my head.
And I was curious of how others interact with themselves when they're talking in their minds.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
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I guess I feel as I had two people living inside of me because the conversations with my mind go like this:

Inner Self: "So, what are you gonna do today man? You know you gotta work right?"
My real self/my body: "Damn, but I don't feel like doing anything, bro."
Inner Self: "CTB then"
My real self: "I don't have the guts yet"
 
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ocean poem

ocean poem

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Mar 21, 2021
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I can relate to that a bit, by that I mean that there is this persona that only lives in your head which only does the massive thinking and the other one that only has to act on certain tasks in real life.
Often there is where the dissociation happens for me.
 
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Makko

Makko

Iä!
Jan 17, 2021
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I never talk to myself in my thoughts. I only talk to my daydream characters.
 
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Some1's_Wasted_Fetus

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Mar 20, 2021
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I never talk to myself in my thoughts. I only talk to my daydream characters.
Same. I've kind of adapted to the harsh realities of life by distracting myself with imaginary scenarios and daydream characters to kind of imagine how my life would be if I was perfectly satisfied and happy. I've been doing it for so long that the imagery feels so sharp sometimes
 
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Ame

Ame

あめ
Nov 1, 2019
322
"Hey, 'Ame' you stupid bitch!"

Usually like this or some variation thereof ha ha. I like to rotate the colourful epithets when I am engaged in conversation with my inner self, just to keep things fresh.

I can relate to that a bit, by that I mean that there is this persona that only lives in your head which only does the massive thinking and the other one that only has to act on certain tasks in real life.
Often there is where the dissociation happens for me.
I really relate to the separation between the thinking self and the acting self. It's a bit unsettling at times because if you fail to consolidate the two, a crisis of identity can creep up. Who is to say which one is the real self?

I never talk to myself in my thoughts. I only talk to my daydream characters.

Same. I've kind of adapted to the harsh realities of life by distracting myself with imaginary scenarios and daydream characters to kind of imagine how my life would be if I was perfectly satisfied and happy. I've been doing it for so long that the imagery feels so sharp sometimes
"Maladaptive Daydreaming" has been my personal opiate for most of my life, but even my inner life has become dull and devoid of colour in recent year -- I guess that I've just about run out of copium. Ah well, it was fun while it lasted.
 
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EraseRewind

EraseRewind

Circling the drain
May 13, 2020
225
I usually use derogatory terms in my inner conversations, I used to have a constant critical monologue but that has stopped recently. Maybe I'm getting better . Once this lockdown is over then I can see an end in sight.
 
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BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
338
I never really thought about this specifically. I guess I alternate between "I" and "you".

"You piece of shit, fuck you"
"I'm disgusting, I shouldn't exist."

When it's not an internal dialogue with myself, it's just like a bunch of televisions on at once playing random memories and disturbing flashbacks that repeat themselves. My mind feels noisy.
 
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Antigonish

Antigonish

Mage
Sep 19, 2020
593
Her, Him, She, He, I, [nickname]
"She's mean, but He's such a sweet heart." "I like sweets but she hates chocolate." "That's just not [nickname]"
 
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almaranthine

almaranthine

Wizard
Nov 28, 2019
616
This is so interesting to me to see other's replies. I can definitely relate to the maladaptive daydreaming- often I would go into these meditative states, detailing scenarios I wished for myself in the future, usually these involved some form of love relationship- the only thing I found pleasurable enough to distract me from the inherent horror of life. Generally the subject was a real person I knew, so I would project my feelings onto this character in my imagination, and it would feel so visceral, like I was loving them in real time. These exercises would only contribute to intensify my eventual despair, because in real time, the people I genuinely loved were the ones who ripped me apart the worst. Other than those daydreaming states, my mental conversations involve, "I", "you", and even "we". Also, this may be a result of my past manic conditions, but sometimes I converse with an "other" in my mind.
 
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Deltrus

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Mar 20, 2019
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I also refer to myself as we often. I think of it as the person talking and the listener. My inner voice is wispy wispery and if I focus on it then it disappears.
 
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xaea13

Student
Jul 13, 2020
100
I've lost count of the times I've said "bro wtf" to myself after doing something stupid
 
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GenesAndEnvironment

GenesAndEnvironment

Autistic loser
Jan 26, 2021
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Almost all of my thinking is done in the background and I have no idea of what's going on in there lmfao.
 
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Lmd

Lmd

Elementalist
Jul 12, 2020
812
I don't talk to myself. I barely have conversations, there are just things happening inside my head. When I daydream I pay more attention to how I feel and the "ambient" instead of dialogues. Even when I think about people I create they don't talk to me. We just do things.
 
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Lucien

Lucien

A Nameless Monster
Mar 7, 2021
130
Whatever assigns the labels 'me' or 'I' operates under the hood. I may get a flash of the visual representation for me or another person. Perhaps it's more like a scene that I explore, but even that's a sequence of frames (or cluster of neurons firing?) so close enough to a 'flash'. That's how it appears but trying to observe it for long will probably contaminate the experiment.
 
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Symbiote

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Oct 12, 2020
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My inner critic sounds like he just discovered 4Chan lingo and decided to use it everyday on me. "KYS faggot!" "Do it for the lulz" "do a barrel roll".
 
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EmbraceOfTheVoid

EmbraceOfTheVoid

Part Time NEET - Full Time Suicidal
Mar 29, 2020
689
I almost never talk to myself, my mind is really blank. Tin Man mode engaged 24/7.
 
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Marktheghost

Marktheghost

Paragon
Feb 20, 2020
911
I usually refer to myself as we when I'm talking to myself.
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
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We or you're.
 
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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
I also refer to myself as "we" sometimes, sometimes as "I". Don't know what it depends on.
 
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ocean poem

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Mar 21, 2021
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I also refer to myself as "we" sometimes, sometimes as "I". Don't know what it depends on.
I analysed my mind a bit and noticed a pattern of how Im thinking.
And even though the pattern might alter a bit, once Im aware of it, the key point seems the remain the same for me.
Whenever Im about to go and do something that is in my daily routine, it doesn't matter if the act is beneficiary to me or not, my mind seems to support itself by saying we, as in it got so tired of these daily habits it started to trick itself by thinking multiple people are doing the task at once.
Buț the moment I try to break this daily routine and do something new I find myself saying I.
I start to feel lonely all of the sudden and it seems like my mind implores me to go back to its comfort zone.
I don't know how much sense I made the way I explained it but that's at least what It depends on for me, or thats what I think it is for now.
 
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ansiedad

ansiedad

Alone
Dec 29, 2020
127
I when Im not bad.
You sometimes.
We in bad moments.
My name in the worst moments.
 
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