Discussion How do you quit procrastinating your suicide?

[bluemoon777]

I've been looking to ctb for a while now, but I keep procrastinating, and finding things to do, which bothers me because I just want to ctb already. For example, a while ago I was going to attempt partial hanging, but it was windy and my thought process was like "it's too windy, and my body will swing around and make noise which will alert people, and I will be rescued" any tips on how to quit procrastinating/ putting off catching the bus?

 

[Mooncry]

Pure, immovable determination and challenging the excuses your SI makes up to put off dying another day. Benzos could help alleviate SI and make you more indifferent to the idea of dying, but they're a double-edged sword in that they can also make you feel okay enough to not die.

I think it's mostly about resolve, and resolve can be hard to find. I've been procrastinating for going on three months now since my SN arrived, despite how badly I want to get it over with. It's not easy.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I would think procrastination is a sign you're not ready to cbt. I've been wanting to die for years but not done anything beacause I'm a coward, not because of procrastination.

 

[2muchpain2]

I would think procrastination is a sign you're not ready to cbt. I've been wanting to die for years but not done anything beacause I'm a coward, not because of procrastination.

im a coward too i hate that about myself

 

[SuicideKitty]

Counting my money.

 

[ConstantPain]

I procrastinate everything, every day. It sucks

 

[bluemoon777]

I wish

Pure, immovable determination and challenging the excuses your SI makes up to put off dying another day. Benzos could help alleviate SI and make you more indifferent to the idea of dying, but they're a double-edged sword in that they can also make you feel okay enough to not die.

I think it's mostly about resolve, and resolve can be hard to find. I've been procrastinating for going on three months now since my SN arrived, despite how badly I want to get it over with. It's not eas

Pure, immovable determination and challenging the excuses your SI makes up to put off dying another day. Benzos could help alleviate SI and make you more indifferent to the idea of dying, but they're a double-edged sword in that they can also make you feel okay enough to not die.

I think it's mostly about resolve, and resolve can be hard to find. I've been procrastinating for going on three months now since my SN arrived, despite how badly I want to get it over with. It's not easy.

I see I see. I think it's to due with the method, I'll be trying full hanging as I don't have access to SN, and don't know where I would order it. I feel if I had SN I could just down it without thinking, but hanging is scary

I procrastinate everything, every day. It sucks

I feel you

I would think procrastination is a sign you're not ready to cbt. I've been wanting to die for years but not done anything beacause I'm a coward, not because of procrastination.

I was ready for a while, and actively attempting, but it stopped and I don't know why. I think my cowardice kicked in

 

[Mooncry]

I feel if I had SN I could just down it without thinking, but hanging is scary

Don't underestimate SI with SN either. I also thought it would be easy to just down it without thinking, but I ended up pouring it down the drain instead. Twice. I think if you're not strong enough to overcome SI, the method you use won't really make much difference. Determination has to come from you.