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traingirl

traingirl

I was good. I was really good.
Oct 7, 2025
329
Do you have certain plans you want to do before you leave? Will you visit your loved ones or do you think it will make it harder to go if you do? I'm planning on visiting one of my best friends and my grandparents before I CTB. I don't really have any special plans or things I feel like I want to do before I go but I might spend some time in nature on a hike or something.
 
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R-7

R-7

iHeartTomoko
Sep 30, 2025
74
Quite frankly I don't think it'd be very much different than the every day for me:

Playing video games, hanging out with friends and hopefully finding another good time or two before I make my exit.
 
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slipnslideal

slipnslideal

g̴o̷ ̷b̸a̶c̷k̸ ̶t̴o̴ ̸m̴o̷n̴k̶e̴
Oct 6, 2025
9
i'd definitely spend mine in nature. i grew up in an urban province, and studied in the capital. i haven't spent as much time in nature than i would've liked.

i plan on going on a forest hike. just sit in the sounds of nature and look at trees. i've always loved and felt comfy looking at and being surrounded by trees, i think it's the monke in me.

recently i read about the japanese concept of komorebi. it pertains to the tranquility one feels looking at the light that brush past the leaves of trees. i'd like to appreciate this in my last days.

i also have an urge to go crazy though. go and do everything that i've always put off or have always felt embarassed to do. i'd like to ride a rollercoaster but always feared looking stupid. or eat a fat piece of steak. go to the cinema alone. spend an entire day playing games—i've always liked playing games, but between growing up broke and school getting in the way, i'd like to induldge in it for a while and catch up with a major part of culture.

i've always felt like we're just a tiny tiny blip in the history of the universe. a product of random rearrangements of particles. we matter so little it's fucking funny. but the human in me wants to end things on a good note. i do not know what compels me to, but i want to spend my last days being kind, and appreciative.

whatever you end up doing, i hope you find what you set out to find. i wish you the best. <3
 
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passivethought121

passivethought121

Specialist
Jun 11, 2023
323
First leave uni, then quit my job, then schedule my letters, then spend every morning wandering the streets or parks with music until I'm tired then go home, up until my final few hours.
 
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Hiro Uchiha

Hiro Uchiha

Experienced
Oct 7, 2025
291
i'd definitely spend mine in nature.
When I close my eyes for the last time, it will be the trees that will watch over me. The birds can sing me their song as the forest cradle me to peace.
 
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Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
251
Suffering.
 
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cloud;.

Member
Oct 16, 2025
39
I don't know.. Nothing feels real...
 
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socksnsandles

Experienced
Oct 7, 2025
291
i have no special plans. open to suggestions
 
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jinmaopoison

jinmaopoison

Member
Oct 6, 2025
52
First leave uni, then quit my job, then schedule my letters, then spend every morning wandering the streets or parks with music until I'm tired then go home, up until my final few hours.
this is a good idea. ill send my internet friends what few possessions i have and say my goodbyes to them
 
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NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
568
In my last weeks I'll to try make sure I know how to make a good bowline and noose knot.
 
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Alice.

Alice.

~~<3~~
May 7, 2023
67
wherever i am in life if it comes to that point, i imagine myself feeling free because there's nothing i would have to maintain. i see myself doing whatever i want for as long as i can
 
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