How do you plan to exit?

[DesperateOne]

What is your method and do you know the intricacies of your plan? How do you know it will be painless?

 

[crystal_meth97]

Yes. My method, when the time comes, which is not any time soon, is SN. It's not very complicated to use and it will hopefully be available to purchase when I'm going to need it.

 

[set0553]

Originally when I was younger my plan was cutting open my forearms, wrist to crook of arm, followed by immediate hanging.. (it was meant to be symbolic) then for awhile til recently, poison hemlock, but between being here and all the advice and research, I'm definitely going to rethink means.. funny how much my thinking has changed over the years. I still have the same goal, just different ways of achieving that goal now. Perhaps SN. Seems to be popular enough, and going to research more. ..

 

[Trakehner]

My hope is to ctb using a firearm. Preferably a shotgun. The main issue is obtaining one. Living in the US makes this easier, but I'm not sure if my hospital stays will prevent me from buying one. I also don't have a job or money.

 

[Coconut blue]

My hope is to ctb using a firearm. Preferably a shotgun. The main issue is obtaining one. Living in the US makes this easier, but I'm not sure if my hospital stays will prevent me from buying one. I also don't have a job or money.

Have you ever come across kate stubblefield's case? a gun is a clean and decisive way to go but I hate to think about what would happen if it goes wrong...you'd be living with hellish consequences for the rest of a drawn out, miserable life because you probably won't be physically able to try ctbing again if you survive the injuries

 

[Unknown21]

I will use the SN, buy a new one, I will use the old one to practice the actual attempt and simulate it until I get used to it, maybe I will do it this year, I have everything for this method except the benzos.

 

[DepressedDude]

25g SN + 50ml water, not going to bother with the other medications as I've read a few posts where they didn't take it either and never posted again.

The only thing stopping me is I don't have it yet and will probably be too scared of being found unless I can find a good spot.

 

[sserafim]

Hopefully N or something

 

[Mi Mi]

What is your method and do you know the intricacies of your plan? How do you know it will be painless?

SN
At home in my bed

 

[Forveleth]

Full suspension. I read many threads here on it. I have practiced to get used to the feeling. Even when it wasn't painless in practice, I pushed through it. My desire to die is outweighing everything else in my life, even the fear of pain.

 

[blippy]

I have not attempted yet but when I do I would like it to be successful. It would be horrible to come back from the attempt after I set everything up. For this purpose, it seems like SN would be my choice since it seems impossible to get my hands on N.

I would rent a nice secluded place near some nature. Hopefully I would be uninterrupted for 2 days to ensure I am not saved.

 

[Agon321]

SN in my house, or in some rented house.

I'm walking a very fine line at this point.
Maybe I'll schedule CTB in June, maybe in July... I'm not sure.
All I know is that my date with death is coming.

I hope the motherfuckers in the afterlife have prepared something good to eat when I get to them.

 

[Suicidal_manlet]

Partial hanging for me

 

[ham and potatoes]

If the time comes, it will be with some drug...
Preferably a barbiturate, but incase I can't get my hands on that, either F, GHB, or some other opiate.

 

[LunarLight]

SN, at home in my bed, when there's no one around. I guess it will be uncomfortable but not that painful.

 

[divinemistress36]

SN if I ever get the balls to do it

 

[JRE75]

SN in the hills near my home that I used to ride my bike before I became ill with depression and later PSSD. I hope to do it this week, I can't give anymore.

 

[SeekingPeace164]

Have you ever come across kate stubblefield's case? a gun is a clean and decisive way to go but I hate to think about what would happen if it goes wrong...you'd be living with hellish consequences for the rest of a drawn out, miserable life because you probably won't be physically able to try ctbing again if you survive the injuries

She aimed under the chin, not angled towards brain

 

[prisonerofexistence]

Full suspension. I read many threads here on it. I have practiced to get used to the feeling. Even when it wasn't painless in practice, I pushed through it. My desire to die is outweighing everything else in my life, even the fear of pain.

But I'm 100% sure si will kick in and you'd try to remove the rope.Full suspension isn't a joke.

 

[AdamOndiAhman]

charcoal and tent or i might go for inert gas. im too much of a coward to do anything else.

 

[black and white]

I just arrived on the website, so i don't know much about N, SN. I know pentobarbital is supposed to be the way but forbidden to sell. So first i think those methods surely have their advantages but it's not like you can find them anywhere. You're most likely need to go on darkweb and order it, hoping you won't be scammed/screwed. Then i am cautious about poisoning, it seems easy on paper but can be difficult for several reason. Once you took it, you have time to regret and panic. You absolutely don't know how your body will react, you could vomit, feeling pain in body or head etc and you're not really sure of anything as any body could react differently to different dose. I took datura when i was young, you really feel yourself dying, not that painful, but just dying and it's not comfortale. I was using drugs when i was young and quite resistant to it, often needed bigger dose than friends. Even before that at 16 just using cannabis at this time, i had my nose broken, so i had a surgery; so they probably gave me barbital stuffs to make me sleep; i am so resistant that i woke up during the process, after few seconds i heard them surprised saying "damn he is awake", they gave another shot, fell asleep again... Guess what i was kind of conscious in sleep and as far as they began to move my bed to go to the awakening room i already opened my eyes, with a double dose.. even not out of the surgery room!! So i still had the tube in my throat, i had to pull it out in the awakening room, lucky me they quickly sent me to my room as i didn't need to stay there. Since i'm a teen I always sleep conscious, and my sleep is very fragile, i wake up at any tiny little sound.... Just examples to show that those supposedly soft and miracle way to sleep forever, needs medical knowledge and is totally different from a person to another, the perfect lethal dose, to just sleep and never wake up without any pain, is never the same and kind of unpredictible.... So on the paper it appears softer and convenient but in reality i don't think it is that simple. And mostly you're not supposed to find/buy them so easily...

If i was in the US, i would already be dead since long by gunshot in the head... Pretty straight. But firearms are almost impossible to access in europe.


So after that I think jumping is the most straight and this is my choice: fast, painless method. It's free; it doesn't necessarily need a plan eventually and can be done with spontaneity. On many point it is the most easy and painless method with firearms. And there is something kind of romantic to it, don't be surprised this is the method you usually see in movies, when actually this is the less used method in reality...
You just need a spot, up to 25-30 meters /80-100 feet (landing on concrete.. or rocks in the nature), even bit less could be enough, over is bonus. This is the only part of the plan. If you don't have access to that, you need to search a spot which could appear difficult (you can't access rooftops, ideal places are protected; you need someplace isolated, at least during a moment at the end of the night). No need to seek for he highest possible, it could make it even more difficult to achieve, as fear could occur more brutally. Backwards and eyes closed seems logical to help. So just a little jump, or letting it go depending your spot, and few seconds after you're off, without any pain. You should not think too much on your way to execute it, or survival instinct will grow and makes you afraid, panicked. I'm still here, and that's the reason; i really think going straight to the point and not thinking is important. After that you only need one second of courage to surpass SI; more easy to say than to do as most of you already know.

How do i know it would be painless? Cause there are plenty of examples from fall to car accident where things are happenning so fast that the brain cut everything off. I read about a guy falling from his own roof that he was fixing, so not so high, after he woke up he explained that he remember the fall, even remembering his body acting like a cat to protect himself, and then total blank. same in car accidents (which is quite similar=>speed, impact etc) the brain turns everythings off within a microsecond, you don't have time to feel any pain.
That's why it's all about the height; enough to be sure that no matter how you fall, in a way or another the head will hit at a certain speed, and everything's done. As i said maybe not to high either because jumping from hundreds and hundreds of feet is probably even scarier... 100 fet more or less is a good starting point, just be sure to not jump legs first and this would be lethal if under 100 feet, over that no matter, legs or not you're not really getting a chance.

For the rest? Not much. No note. People i want to protect from knowing=> i already cut since months by deleting facebook and changing phone number discretely, so i just disappeared naturally, they won't really realise, thinking we just lost sight.
The little details is mostly about the hours as i live in a city, so there is a little time window around 3-4 o'clock where almost everyone is sleeping in the neigbourhood.

 

[Vicolo cieco]

I'm lucky enough to have a handgun in a country where access to firearms is limited. I'll try to hit the brain stem when shooting.

 

[Beyond_Repair]

SN + meto + Xanax in a hotel.

 

[nonentity]

partial hanging - i attempted 2 times with this method and almost was successful the 2nd time, but SI took over. next time, which i think is soon, i'm going to take ativan to calm my nerves and try for the final time

 

[Ultra'sPurgat0rio]

I'm lucky enough to have a handgun in a country where access to firearms is limited. I'll try to hit the brain stem when shooting.

Same here. Best of luck to you, whatever you decide on doing.

 

[Linda]

What is your method and do you know the intricacies of your plan? How do you know it will be painless?

I will go by hypothermia, somewhere miles out in the wilderness, in cold weather. I know enough about hypothermia, from years of travelling in the wilderness (and making sure then that I avoided it), to know that it is a peaceful way to go.

 

[Eudaimonic]

Shotgun or inert gas

Have you ever come across kate stubblefield's case? a gun is a clean and decisive way to go but I hate to think about what would happen if it goes wrong...you'd be living with hellish consequences for the rest of a drawn out, miserable life because you probably won't be physically able to try ctbing again if you survive the injuries

This is why I intend to combine methods (drowning, fall, or both) to effectively failsafe it. Of course, with a 12-gauge and 00 buckshot, the chance of failure is quite low regardless.

 

[calebzz1]

If I ever plan to do so, SN would be my first choice with proper time and space.

A secondary choice would be a shotgun blast to the head, instantaneous and low chance of failure.

 

[GuiltyAsSin]

Sedatives + body of water OR cardiac switch/MAID protocol. I'm a healthcare professional so that makes things a little easier, but not really. I def wouldn't be able to get the huge quantities necessary for the full MAID protocol. Lately I've been looking into inert gas asphyxiation, but it sort of seems like a pain trying to figure out the whole mask/bag thing. I'm also really worried about that method failing and ending up a vegetable, since the hypoxia occurs so rapidly. Lastly, there's always firearms, but I don't think I have the cojones, if you will.

Getting really, really drunk and jumping off something or in front of a train both seem like possibilities. I think jumping off a building/bridge is preferable, as I don't want to traumatize the train conductor.

 

[Dolan400]

Have you ever come across kate stubblefield's case? a gun is a clean and decisive way to go but I hate to think about what would happen if it goes wrong...you'd be living with hellish consequences for the rest of a drawn out, miserable life because you probably won't be physically able to try ctbing again if you survive the injuries

While there is always a chance of it failing, Kate stubblefield aimed under the chin with a hunting rifle which is NOT the best method for ctb with a firearm. Never aim below the chin. Through the mouth tho has a much higher success rate.