Discussion How do you know when you've had enough?

[Straken]

I can't go on much longer like this. I have alot going for me. But absolutely no one realises how much pain i'm in. Or if they do they don't care. My dad has an idea(bless he's soul) but he is 73 and won't be around much longer. I dont even want to visit him too much because I know he sees my suffering and therefore suffers himself. I think of waiting for him to pass away but by then my son would be close to he's teens and then my act would destroy he's life too. I don't have a reliable method yet even though im on this site every night before bed. Everything besides hanging is too difficult to obtain and im too chicken for hanging. There's no 100% certain jumping spots any longer as the most popular bridge got fenced. Im too chicken for hanging and dont have a place to do it anyway(my luck that my apartment has no reliable ligature for full suspension, like wtf)

 

[Bruces]

I could have wrote this myself

 

[I screwed up]

I can't go on much longer like this. I have alot going for me. But absolutely no one realises how much pain i'm in. Or if they do they don't care. My dad has an idea(bless he's soul) but he is 73 and won't be around much longer. I dont even want to visit him too much because I know he sees my suffering and therefore suffers himself. I think of waiting for him to pass away but by then my son would be close to he's teens and then my act would destroy he's life too. I don't have a reliable method yet even though im on this site every night before bed. Everything besides hanging is too difficult to obtain and im too chicken for hanging. There's no 100% certain jumping spots any longer as the most popular bridge got fenced. Im too chicken for hanging and dont have a place to do it anyway(my luck that my apartment has no reliable ligature for full suspension, like wtf)

This is exactly my situation ... Including the correct ages of my parents and my son. Although majority of people in my country ctb by hanging , I m gutless to try it. I am planning SN now , but not yet procured it yet.

 

[Meowkin]

You could try the CO method with charcoal. You can get more info on the CO thread and if you google jessica choi yuk chun.