i think I'm close to it, more than I've ever been at least, but i would definitely not say that i do not question it anymore, in fact, i have more doubts than ever, the thing is, i don't care about the answers anymore.
the closer i get to it, the more I fear it, i started to question the bases of beliefs I've been holding for years, and I am scared, i won't lie, but whatever it is that will happen i am ok with it.
at the same time, i feel at ease, almost at peace. things are just not as hard as before.
i am still very emotional about it, last night I thought about the words I will write in my letter, and I cried like a baby. i don't feel sad about it tho. i accepted that this is how things are and that all of those feelings are temporary. soon I won't feel a thing.