How do you get through the day?

[ddimd]

For people who aren't ctb-ing yet, how do you get through the long hours of the day?

Every day feels so long and tedious, and I don't know what to do. Especially on days when there's not much work to be distracting myself with. After work, at least I can watch some mind numbing shows to pass time quickly, but during the day, time passes so slowly.

 

[Donewitheverything]

Constant escapism and distractions. During the semester, I study a lot and exercise. Outside of the semester, I play a lot of video games; watch movies; talk to peers; drink the concessional booze; and go on vacations. I just try not to think about what ails me as it's the only thing I can do.

 

[Kyrok]

I sleep until 9am, check emails, news, FB, chat on phone, minimally keep up with work, eat dinner, lie down, watch tv, visit SS, sleep.

I find dealing with chronic pain much harder than depression. The latter may lend me to tedium, but the former prevents me from doing most of what I would actually like to do. Anxiety I suppose is also an impediment for me.

If you're looking for a distraction at work, personal media device or enhance your daydreaming powers.

 

[JadedGray]

For people who aren't ctb-ing yet, how do you get through the long hours of the day?

Every day feels so long and tedious, and I don't know what to do. Especially on days when there's not much work to be distracting myself with. After work, at least I can watch some mind numbing shows to pass time quickly, but during the day, time passes so slowly.

Like you, I find the days to be long and tedious. I try to find ways to distract myself, but it's getting harder to, since I've lost interest in pretty much everything. I try to sleep as long as possible. I listen to music, watch television (even though I don't like that much TV), watch movies, search the internet (for anything that will keep my interest, which is hard since I have no attention span anymore), and spend time with my dog. I also spend some time prepping meals, since I make everything from scratch. I've been eating a healthy, organic, plant-based diet (it kills some time). I used to read but I don't have the concentration or focus anymore to read more than a few paragraphs. Maladaptive daydreaming helps too, since I can escape from my surroundings.

 

[AloneInTheSky]

Life can get really really dull when nothing makes you happy anymore. I listen to a LOT of music, watch lots of youtube and netflix, I've seen every single movie I've wanted to see in theaters the day they came out, I try to go to work/therapy or at least get out of the house once a day. It's been really difficult these last few days but try changing things up. Try a different flavor of your favorite snack, or get a new video game to play.

 

[Mart]

Barely. I barely get through my day a lot of the time. Music mostly. Sometimes it's not enough but sometimes it's just enough. If it's real bad I'll try and smoke or drink. Today I just stayed to myself and watched some videos, eventually anxiety started getting to bad and now I'm just listening to music.

Life can get really really dull when nothing makes you happy anymore. I listen to a LOT of music, watch lots of youtube and netflix, I've seen every single movie I've wanted to see in theaters the day they came out, I try to go to work/therapy or at least get out of the house once a day. It's been really difficult these last few days but try changing things up. Try a different flavor of your favorite snack, or get a new video game to play.

I used to do the movie thing, I just have a hard time getting out now days. Finally went and saw avengers at midnight the other night because nobody was there, fell asleep but I got there at least I guess. I used to go for runs, I'm not eating much though and I noticed that runs started hurting the less I ate but my appetite is going away. I'd like to go on runs again but it honestly just sucks being outside. I know that sounds pathetic but I hate it.

 

[Halo13]

Barely. I barely get through my day a lot of the time. Music mostly. Sometimes it's not enough but sometimes it's just enough. If it's real bad I'll try and smoke or drink. Today I just stayed to myself and watched some videos, eventually anxiety started getting to bad and now I'm just listening to music.

I used to do the movie thing, I just have a hard time getting out now days. Finally went and saw avengers at midnight the other night because nobody was there, fell asleep but I got there at least I guess. I used to go for runs, I'm not eating much though and I noticed that runs started hurting the less I ate but my appetite is going away. I'd like to go on runs again but it honestly just sucks being outside. I know that sounds pathetic but I hate it.

It doesn't sound pathetic. Being outside drains me. I'm always jittery and panicky when I have to go out. Glad you made it to the movie, that's a huge accomplishment by my standards. Movie theater naps are awesome.

 

[JJ-NOHOPE]

Sleep as much as possible, but that is only possible with drugs.
Stay in bed all day.
Only eat every 2-3 days.
Don't, read, garden or do any of the hobbies I used to be interested in.
Cry most of the day.
Sometimes drink.
Sometimes cut.
My therapist asked me what I wanted to do.
I couldn't think of a single solitary thing (except ctb) which I am too smart to tell her.

This chasm of despair and torment has swallowed me whole and has no intention of spitting me out.

Once upon a time I was a person. That is not true anymore.

 

[marcusuk63]

Naps , obsessively tidying up , sorting my possessions out and binning them all including most of my clothes and doing jobs around the house i`ve had on my to do list as in 2 years my mortgage is finished and as it was an endowment mortgage i will have to pay £28k i dont have so there will be very little to sort out for relatives when i CTB....pic examples

 

[pole]

For people who aren't ctb-ing yet, how do you get through the long hours of the day?

Every day feels so long and tedious, and I don't know what to do. Especially on days when there's not much work to be distracting myself with. After work, at least I can watch some mind numbing shows to pass time quickly, but during the day, time passes so slowly.

Sleep.

 

[Halo13]

Naps , obsessively tidying up , sorting my possessions out and binning them all including most of my clothes and doing jobs around the house i`ve had on my to do list as in 2 years my mortgage is finished and as it was an endowment mortgage i will have to pay £28k i dont have so there will be very little to sort out for relatives when i CTB....pic examples

That's quite an improvement! I plan to do something similar. Been slowly throwing out things also or giving things away. Would like to leave nothing at all.

 

[marcusuk63]

Sleep.

Naps , obsessively tidying up , sorting my possessions out and binning them all including most of my clothes and doing jobs around the house i`ve had on my to do list as in 2 years my mortgage is finished and as it was an endowment mortgage i will have to pay £28k i dont have so there will be very little to sort out for relatives when i CTB....pic examples

That is just my loft by the way lol

 

[Nem]

I have no idea how I get through the day, it's a miracle that I'm here and I think of death near constantly

 

[Final Escape]

It doesn't sound pathetic. Being outside drains me. I'm always jittery and panicky when I have to go out. Glad you made it to the movie, that's a huge accomplishment by my standards. Movie theater naps are awesome.

It's bc u been isolated too much maybe? Being around right people can help heal some of that agoraphobia and social awkwardness.

I have no idea how I get through the day, it's a miracle that I'm here and I think of death near constantly

I felt this way b4 comin off legal speed and attending NA meetings helped me realize I'm not alone. That many people are struggling in isolation and lack of connection.

 

[IronTusk]

Everyday is a struggle :/

 

[Final Escape]

For people who aren't ctb-ing yet, how do you get through the long hours of the day?

Every day feels so long and tedious, and I don't know what to do. Especially on days when there's not much work to be distracting myself with. After work, at least I can watch some mind numbing shows to pass time quickly, but during the day, time passes so slowly.

The gym, finding things to do, relationships however fleeting. The necessity of having to keep roof over head and food to eat, sex to have lol!

 

[GreyMagic]

• Liquid Diazepam
• Liquid Quentiapine
• Long sleeps - talking 15 hours easily
• Pregabalin
• This forum

 

[Halo13]

It's bc u been isolated too much maybe? Being around right people can help heal some of that agoraphobia and social awkwardness.

I felt this way b4 comin off legal speed and attending NA meetings helped me realize I'm not alone. That many people are struggling in isolation and lack of connection.

I do okay around people when I have to. I'm not completely agoraphobic, just have serious anxiety issues. I don't act as stupid as I'm worried I might. I'm in public right now, think I'm doing okay.

 

[AutumnEmbers]

I'm so sleep-deprived, brain-fogged, and exhausted from constant anxiety that every little task takes me a million years to perform, so I always have plenty of things that need doing (which helps keeps me distracted). I also go for walks with my dog, and force myself to workout. Most days I check in on here (although I don't always have the energy to post) and talk to a friend. I've been trying to get back into drawing, but I don't have the motivation or energy. Other than that I mostly turn to escapism e.g. reading, music, movies etc.

 

[pole]

That is just my loft by the way lol

Im betting its literally pitch black. Id be sleeping there 24/7.

 

[marcusuk63]

Im betting its literally pitch black. Id be sleeping there 24/7.

it is as i converted it several years ago and never got round to fitting a window or building a proper staircase on the landing , i just used it for storage of all my old tech i a]m (was) such a hoarder and hated throwing things away but have managed it even throwing the perfectly usable bedroom tv`s away !! , as i live on my own and already have 3 bedrooms there was no point making another lol

 

[ddimd]

Sleep.

Literally my only hobby. I would do this all day if I could, but sadly, I still have to pretend to be a normal functioning person so as not to get anyone suspicious of me having suicidal thoughts/plans.

 

[Alchemist]

I just go through the motions. I do what's expected from me, pretend to be a normal person. I just keep myself busy with anything to avoid thinking.

 

[Allpainnogain]

Like you, I find the days to be long and tedious. I try to find ways to distract myself, but it's getting harder to, since I've lost interest in pretty much everything. I try to sleep as long as possible. I listen to music, watch television (even though I don't like that much TV), watch movies, search the internet (for anything that will keep my interest, which is hard since I have no attention span anymore), and spend time with my dog. I also spend some time prepping meals, since I make everything from scratch. I've been eating a healthy, organic, plant-based diet (it kills some time). I used to read but I don't have the concentration or focus anymore to read more than a few paragraphs. Maladaptive daydreaming helps too, since I can escape from my surroundings.

Impressive that you cook!

I have no idea how I get through the day, it's a miracle that I'm here and I think of death near constantly

Same here

It doesn't sound pathetic. Being outside drains me. I'm always jittery and panicky when I have to go out. Glad you made it to the movie, that's a huge accomplishment by my standards. Movie theater naps are awesome.

Even with drugs I struggle to sleep. So horrid when waking hours are nothing but torture. Every single second

 

[JadedGray]

Impressive that you cook!

Same here

Even with drugs I struggle to sleep. So horrid when waking hours are nothing but torture. Every single second

Thanks. It's nothing special. Everything is made of vegetables, so it isn't difficult. Most of the time I just make salads or soups. I don't eat that much because I don't have much of an appetite.