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shadow11

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Jul 31, 2018
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I'm so sick feel so bad but cant get past the fear. I'm not afraid of dying but afraid of failing and things being worse. I've only got one shot at this.
 
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shadow11

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Jul 31, 2018
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I'm so sick feel so bad but cant get past the fear. I'm not afraid of dying but afraid of failing and things being worse. I've only got one shot at this.
I'm on the edge dont know how much longer
 
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bbq1

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Have you picked a date yet. It'll probably help you focus. You've been saying the same thing for a couple of weeks now so unless you make a decision you'll still be stuck like this at christmas and beyond.
 
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shadow11

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Jul 31, 2018
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Have you picked a date yet. It'll probably help you focus. You've been saying the same thing for a couple of weeks now so unless you make a decision you'll still be stuck like this at christmas and beyond.
No I haven't picked a date but I know its getting closer cause I'm getting sicker
Maybe picking one would help. I'm going to hang and I'm just terrified
 
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bbq1

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Aug 3, 2018
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Once you've got 5mg of clonazepam + some alcohol in it'll very likely cancel the terror.
 
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shadow11

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Jul 31, 2018
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Once you've got 5mg of clonazepam + some alcohol in it'll very likely cancel the terror.
Oh I hope so hope I dont pass out first
 
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AntiLifeEric

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Jun 20, 2018
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1. Water-fasting
This is literally the only way I've found to cure my anxiety. The problem is that it comes back after a few days. If I was capable of doing it for 3-4 weeks, I could solve the problem for good, and it'd make dying much easier.

This might work for you, as well.
 
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shadow11

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Jul 31, 2018
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1. Water-fasting
This is literally the only way I've found to cure my anxiety. The problem is that it comes back after a few days. If I was capable of doing it for 3-4 weeks, I could solve the problem for good, and it'd make dying much easier.

This might work for you, as well.
What about the withdrawels from the benzos
 
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InsidiousDormouse

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Jul 3, 2018
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I think failing is what bothers me the most. I have failed at pretty much everything in my life, so it stands to reason I will fuck this up too. My body aches and hurts so much from two years of unassisted, untreated, forced cold turkey withdrawal from a very high dose of Benzos. When the day comes, I want to leave this world in as much of a calm and peaceful manner as I can possibly manage.
 
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shadow11

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Jul 31, 2018
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I think failing is what bothers me the most. I have failed at pretty much everything in my life, so it stands to reason I will fuck this up too. My body aches and hurts so much from two years of unassisted, untreated, forced cold turkey withdrawal from a very high dose of Benzos. When the day comes, I want to leave this world in as much of a calm and peaceful manner as I can possibly manage.
Me too just cant go through with withdrawals again
 
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throwaway123

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Aug 5, 2018
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I wish I knew
 
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