how do you feel tonight

[hi-okbye]

what's stuck on your mind?

 

[annxietty]

I feel triggered and I dont exactly know why, I feel angry and sleepy... oh god I feel like shit huh... Gotta look for a job, but Im afraid, I want to read, but Im too sleepy, I want to sleep but I dont want tomorrow to come yet... and I feel triggered and I dont know whyyyyy ,gonna go sleep, take my meds and sleep, yes.

 

[Weltall]

I'm jobless right now, and I'm depressed to the point where I can't focus on studying for my certifications.
To distract myself from pain, I'm trying to support others with their issues.

I feel triggered and I dont exactly know why, I feel angry and sleepy... oh god I feel like shit huh... Gotta look for a job, but Im afraid, I want to read, but Im too sleepy, I want to sleep but I dont want tomorrow to come yet... and I feel triggered and I dont know whyyyyy ,gonna go sleep, take my meds and sleep, yes.

Take care of your body first friend!

 

[hi-okbye]

I feel triggered and I dont exactly know why, I feel angry and sleepy... oh god I feel like shit huh... Gotta look for a job, but Im afraid, I want to read, but Im too sleepy, I want to sleep but I dont want tomorrow to come yet... and I feel triggered and I dont know whyyyyy ,gonna go sleep, take my meds and sleep, yes.

i get that feeling. like somethings setting you off and it won't let you do anything. i hope sleeping it off will help, sometimes that's what i do when i feel a particularly strong emotion. sending love <3

 

[Heading to Darkness]

what's stuck on your mind?

i made my vlog today then i walked to the beach. The sun long gone and black clouds were closing in and wind was harsh The feel of the power of nature fills my mind with awe and makes me sad to think im looking at the ocean which we are destroying, then i know i'm right in wanting to exit this life and just go back to earth and my ashes in the sea. it clears my mind of everything else, just leaves the dark and the peace just days away

 

[hi-okbye]

I'm jobless right now, and I'm depressed to the point where I can't focus on studying for my certifications.
To distract myself from pain, I'm trying to support others with their issues.

it totally makes sense how you feel. distracting yourself is a good idea. maybe tho, kinda like you said, try getting to the root of how your feeling. just understanding yourself might help a little. feel better soon <3

 

[higherthanthesun]

I'm jobless right now, and I'm depressed to the point where I can't focus on studying for my certifications.
To distract myself from pain, I'm trying to support others with their issues.


Take care of your body first friend!

I totally feel that, I'm in the same boat, certifications and everything. I need to study but I just can't bring myself to read that damn overcomplicated textbook.

I also need to get a job, I've had countless interviews but nothing sticks. It's been months and I feel like such a failure sometimes.

 

[hi-okbye]

I totally feel that, I'm in the same boat, certifications and everything. I need to study but I just can't bring myself to read that damn overcomplicated textbook.

I also need to get a job, I've had countless interviews but nothing sticks. It's been months and I feel like such a failure sometimes.

struggling doesn't mean your a failure. but good luck with everything :)

 

[hellispink]

I have a headache that is killing me because of antidepressant withdrawal. My ears are hurting me from the pain. Emotionally I want to cut my throat or my wrists. I have bpd so i am a crisis and when i get like that my world starts crumbling and it gets very crazy.

 

[sserafim]

what's stuck on your mind?

I'm exhausted and I just want to sleep forever. I wish that I wouldn't wake up tomorrow but sadly I probably will…

 

[hi-okbye]

I have a headache that is killing me because of antidepressant withdrawal. My ears are hurting me from the pain. Emotionally I want to cut my throat or my wrists. I have bpd so i am a crisis and when i get like that my world starts crumbling and it gets very crazy.

:(( i get exactly how you feel. i'm so sorry for your physical and mental pain i get how much it sucks. hopefully your physical pain eases soon at least. i hope your crisis ends soon as well, good luck <33

 

[Heading to Darkness]

I'm jobless right now, and I'm depressed to the point where I can't focus on studying for my certifications.
To distract myself from pain, I'm trying to support others with their issues.


Take care of your body first friend!

I'm exhausted and I just want to sleep forever. I wish that I wouldn't wake up tomorrow but sadly I probably will…

i get that, the constant exhaustion makes simple tasks seem impossible

 

[hi-okbye]

I'm exhausted and I just want to sleep forever. I wish that I wouldn't wake up tomorrow but sadly I probably will…

omg i get how you feel to a T. one time i somehow convinced myself i was done w/ my journey and i was finally gonna pass peacefully in my sleep (like a week ago), i was very disappointed when i woke up. the exhaustion is just so much im sorry your dealing w/ that, but i get it too :(

 

[Weltall]

it totally makes sense how you feel. distracting yourself is a good idea. maybe tho, kinda like you said, try getting to the root of how your feeling. just understanding yourself might help a little. feel better soon <3

That made me tear up a bit, and I appreciate your kindness. I wish you the same love and more.

I totally feel that, I'm in the same boat, certifications and everything. I need to study but I just can't bring myself to read that damn overcomplicated textbook.

I also need to get a job, I've had countless interviews but nothing sticks. It's been months and I feel like such a failure sometimes.

I've been rejected a lot as well for the past 3 months. I have a family supporting me, and I appreciate them so much for it while in my transition.
I'm going to start studying tomorrow, because I want to do more with my life and feel needed.

PM me if you need any motivation or support to push yourself with your education.

 

[hi-okbye]

That made me tear up a bit, and I appreciate your kindness. I wish you the same love and more.


I've been rejected a lot as well for the past 3 months. I have a family supporting me, and I appreciate them so much for it while in my transition.
I'm going to start studying tomorrow, because I want to do more with my life and feel needed.

PM me if you need any motivation or support to push yourself with your education.

that warmed my heart, thank you <33

on the other hand, i'm happy you at least have some people to support you. and i'm glad your getting yourself back up i wish you a lotta luck moving foward :)

 

[sserafim]

omg i get how you feel to a T. one time i somehow convinced myself i was done w/ my journey and i was finally gonna pass peacefully in my sleep (like a week ago), i was very disappointed when i woke up. the exhaustion is just so much im sorry your dealing w/ that, but i get it too :(

I keep trying to manifest dying in my sleep but I haven't had any success. I'm honestly disappointed when I wake up and have to face yet another day. I wish that life wasn't this tiring and exhausting.

 

[february in alaska]

All jumbled. It's like my mind is going in slow motion and also so fast it's blurry, I can't hold onto a single thought or emotion... just a mush of sadhappyangrylonelyterrifiedcontent. Like the world's worst salad.

 

[mertvets]

better currently... might start recovering... but who knows what's next.

 

[R_N]

I am being too in touch with myself as evident by amount of posts I make.

I am not spending time on distractions recently. And when I am, I am not immersed.

...I am just tired of being an observer like some ghost nowdays. At least it will end eventually...

 

[Despondent_Fondant]

Like im missing out on what my life could be. I waste so much time.

 

[Weltall]

I have a headache that is killing me because of antidepressant withdrawal. My ears are hurting me from the pain. Emotionally I want to cut my throat or my wrists. I have bpd so i am a crisis and when i get like that my world starts crumbling and it gets very crazy.

Is there anything you can take to help with some of the pain?
Spoke to a doctor about these issues with withdrawal?
I'm sorry you're dealing with BPD. I understand it's difficult to manage and handle.

I'm exhausted and I just want to sleep forever. I wish that I wouldn't wake up tomorrow but sadly I probably will…

Try to find some reasons to wake up tomorrow.
Like making some delicious food to eat.

i get that, the constant exhaustion makes simple tasks seem impossible

Were all exhausted. Life is hard, and our brain doesn't want us to give up.
Try to force yourself to do small tasks. Tomorrow, I'm going to clean my room and try to study.
Try to think about why doing those small things will help you in turn.

Like im missing out on what my life could be. I waste so much time.

Put yourself on a schedule. Make yourself accountable for wanting to get better.
You spend x hours to study, then you spend x time to work out, and you spend x time to be with family and friends.
I suffer with this problem too friend.
Just know that you can improve. You just need to try.

I am being too in touch with myself as evident by amount of posts I make.

I am not spending time on distractions recently. And when I am, I am not immersed.

...I am just tired of being an observer like some ghost nowdays. At least it will end eventually...

Just keep trying to do other things.
You'll eventually find something that catches your attention and time.

 

[tiredcat]

i just told my bf i've been suicidal for 3 days and it didn't go well. not cause he didnt care or anything. i just cant bring myself to let him help me cuz either way there's not much he can do, and i don't really see a point since i know i cant ctb and this feeling comes and goes. it just has stayed a lot longer and it's hitting a lot harder this time. i just hope things will be okay tmrw since i'm seeing him. i feel guilty for the way i handled it cause i know he just cares but i don't feel like i deserve him or his love.

sending everyone in this thread a lot of love though. <3 hope everyone's situation gets better.

 

[hellispink]

:(( i get exactly how you feel. i'm so sorry for your physical and mental pain i get how much it sucks. hopefully your physical pain eases soon at least. i hope your crisis ends soon as well, good luck <33

Thank u best wishes for you too

 

[F@#$]

Miserable as usual. Am I the only one who gets so sad that I can physically feel it? I've got this feeling in my chest that I can't explain.

 

[Weltall]

All jumbled. It's like my mind is going in slow motion and also so fast it's blurry, I can't hold onto a single thought or emotion... just a mush of sadhappyangrylonelyterrifiedcontent. Like the world's worst salad.

Being human is tough, and our brain juggling all of those emotions at the same time is difficult to comprehend.
'Try to pick around the salad, and focus on the good parts.

better currently... might start recovering... but who knows what's next.

I'm happy you're doing better! Remember, small steps.

i just told my bf i've been suicidal for 3 days and it didn't go well. not cause he didnt care or anything. i just cant bring myself to let him help me cuz either way there's not much he can do, and i don't really see a point since i know i cant ctb and this feeling comes and goes. it just has stayed a lot longer and it's hitting a lot harder this time. i just hope things will be okay tmrw since i'm seeing him. i feel guilty for the way i handled it cause i know he just cares but i don't feel like i deserve him or his love.

sending everyone in this thread a lot of love though. <3 hope everyone's situation gets better.

If he wants to be with you by his own choice, then you deserve everything that he's offering you.
Don't let your brain try to tell you what you do or don't deserve.
There is nothing to be guilty over trying to seek help.

Miserable as usual. Am I the only one who gets so sad that I can physically feel it? I've got this feeling in my chest that I can't explain.

It's called psychogenic pain.
Our brain reacts to emotional and psychological distress by sending signals to parts of our body in response.
The pain you feel is real.
Focus on helping you and making yourself happy friend.

 

[hi-okbye]

I keep trying to manifest dying in my sleep but I haven't had any success. I'm honestly disappointed when I wake up and have to face yet another day. I wish that life wasn't this tiring and exhausting.

same, i wish it was easier to just.. exist. it's very small chance that that would happen unfortunately :(

All jumbled. It's like my mind is going in slow motion and also so fast it's blurry, I can't hold onto a single thought or emotion... just a mush of sadhappyangrylonelyterrifiedcontent. Like the world's worst salad.

aw, maybe try focusing on the good feeling. really zoning in on them when you notice they pop up. i get that feeling, when everything feels like a blur. i really recomend just trying to zone in on one particular feeling, it can be overwhelming sometimes to feel so much all at once.

better currently... might start recovering... but who knows what's next.

im happy for you! maybe try just doing anything you love, or even like. i hope you get better on your road ahead :)

I am being too in touch with myself as evident by amount of posts I make.

I am not spending time on distractions recently. And when I am, I am not immersed.

...I am just tired of being an observer like some ghost nowdays. At least it will end eventually...

i don't really think there's such a thing as being too in touch with yourself. i get how you feel though, just not being there when you do things. i hope your plans go well though, and that you find peace wherever that would be.

Like im missing out on what my life could be. I waste so much time.

i get that completly. i spend all my days in my room never really getting anything done. maybe try doing something special. it doesn't have to be crazy or anything, just something out of what you normally would do.

i just told my bf i've been suicidal for 3 days and it didn't go well. not cause he didnt care or anything. i just cant bring myself to let him help me cuz either way there's not much he can do, and i don't really see a point since i know i cant ctb and this feeling comes and goes. it just has stayed a lot longer and it's hitting a lot harder this time. i just hope things will be okay tmrw since i'm seeing him. i feel guilty for the way i handled it cause i know he just cares but i don't feel like i deserve him or his love.

sending everyone in this thread a lot of love though. <3 hope everyone's situation gets better.

i hope everything goes well for you and your boyfriend. sending you much love aswell <3

Miserable as usual. Am I the only one who gets so sad that I can physically feel it? I've got this feeling in my chest that I can't explain.

:( i get exactly how you feel though your not alone. sometimes when im in a lot of emotional pain, i feel it physically as well. like i feel my chest hurt, or my stomach hurt or i get nauseous or something. maybe our bodies just arn't equip to handle the amount of emotional pain we feel sometimes. i hope you feel better soon though sending you lots of love <3

 

[hxppythxught]

i feel, very drained. not sure how to describe it otherwise i just feel bland? maybe? i find myself having little enjoyment in anything i do.

 

[asian.neet]

Mad. Sad. Angry. Despised. Self-hatred. Negative. Rage.

My plan fell apart again. My parents found my CTB items I needed for the exit bag.

I cant stand the pain. They're making it worse by removing access to these things and making me live longer in agony. They aren't loving. They are pro-life. And pro-lifers only care about quantity over quality.

 

[jar-baby]

I've just finished my finals. Aside from stressing over how my grades are gonna turn out, I have no idea how I'm gonna cope for the next 3 months without uni to preoccupy myself with. I don't have the motivation or discipline to do anything productive and studying under pressure was the best distraction I had. maybe i'll finally find the conviction to ctb.

 

[Weltall]

i feel, very drained. not sure how to describe it otherwise i just feel bland? maybe? i find myself having little enjoyment in anything i do.

I believe that you'll find enjoyment again.
Just keep trying.

Mad. Sad. Angry. Despised. Self-hatred. Negative. Rage.

My plan fell apart again. My parents found my CTB items I needed for the exit bag.

I cant stand the pain. They're making it worse by removing access to these things and making me live longer in agony. They aren't loving. They are pro-life. And pro-lifers only care about quantity over quality.

Regardless of what their stance is, they're doing this because they're scared of losing you. I'm sure they still love you, and want you to find meaning in life. You're mad at the world right now. That's fine, rage against it right now so you can tire your brain out.

Once you've de-stressed, think about what makes you happy and focus on it.

I've just finished my finals. Aside from stressing over how my grades are gonna turn out, I have no idea how I'm gonna cope for the next 3 months without uni to preoccupy myself with. I don't have the motivation or discipline to do anything productive and studying under pressure was the best distraction I had. maybe i'll finally find the conviction to ctb.

Then don't force yourself to do something productive. Take the three months to relax and do what makes you happy.