I just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this torturous, futile existence and I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from.
I always suffer from being trapped in this horrific world where suicide is seen as a crime where I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing, I'll always see existence as the problem, to me existence will always be an abomination and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently unconscious with no more pain and no more suffering, I wish to erase this existence.