How do you feel about broadcasting or recording your own suicide for a delayed upload?

[wait-for-the-bus]

In my search for information on CTB I have come across people who videoed their own suicides. I am not sure if they were recorded it live or delayed uploads.

How do you feel about this. I wish I could say I would never consider it but I am not sure I can rule it.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

To me, it's a very private thing that should not be shared. The people left behind will likely already be traumatized and sharing it will simply further exabberate said trauma.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not understand why someone would want to record their own suicide, I want my last moments to be private, it is my death and it is nothing to do with anyone else.

 

[Noctis]

The only reason I would want to watch someone else get on the bus is to make sure the method I want to use is actually completely pain free. Other than that, it's a very private affair that is nobody's business but the person in question, and I would feel like I was invading their privacy, even if they voluntarily uploaded it.

 

[PandaExit]

I wouldn't want to record my death no. I do watch a lot of death online though. I think it's to face my fear of it though.

 

[Chinaski]

The only reason I would want to watch someone else get on the bus is to make sure the method I want to use is actually completely pain free. Other than that, it's a very private affair that is nobody's business but the person in question, and I would feel like I was invading their privacy, even if they voluntarily uploaded it.

Okay but you did post in the partners megathread (since removed) offering "all the N2 someone would need" and pledging to move a prospective partner's body afterwards so it didn't look like a suicide, l presume from this message you are seeking a partner to use as an experiment?

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

The only reason I would want to watch someone else get on the bus is to make sure the method I want to use is actually completely pain free. Other than that, it's a very private affair that is nobody's business but the person in question, and I would feel like I was invading their privacy, even if they voluntarily uploaded it.

I do agree with you. Watching for that purpose I have done as well/

 

[Noctis]

Okay but you did post in the partners megathread (since removed) offering "all the N2 someone would need" and pledging to move a prospective partner's body afterwards so it didn't look like a suicide, l presume from this message you are seeking a partner to use as an experiment?

No, just offering help to anyone who doesn't want their death to obviously be a suicide.

And it's one thing to be a comforting presence and be with someone as they pass away. It's an entirely different thing to voyeuristically watch their most private moment from a screen. Or, at least it is to me.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Privacy please

 

[Kobusu]

Probably shouldn't be done, but I kinda wanna become an internet shock video, so when I inevitably get a firearm I'll probably stream it. Let myself be a little selfish in those final moments, see if I can become someones "you won't believe what I saw online yesterday" story or something. Morally, I think it's abhorrent, but if I'm gonna ctb then fuck it. Maybe it'll become a sort of artistic "swan song". Not sure, there's really no way in justifying it, and I agree with everyone else. It's an intensely private and personal affair, but that also means you decide everything about it. Making it public just causes potential harm and/or trauma to others though, and I'd argue it's the wrong thing to do.

 

[aprilshowers]

I would never publicize my death. I want it to be an entirely private affair, excluding distributing a note or two.

 

[TooConscious]

At onetime I thought it might give some courage to others but I'm not that important and you get sick pwrvy type people waking off to your suffering that feeds them.
Don't fancy that.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

I've considered recording it just so that LE can see my death was an unassisted suicide (would help bigly in their death investigation). I've also considered ctb in some very unique fashion in order to make the news and ultimately raise awareness about the dangers of Cipro--the FDA-approved drug that drove me to ctb way before my time on this planet was up--but I'm not creative enough to have figured out what that unique fashion would be. I'm open to suggestions!

 

[StarryStarry]

In my search for information on CTB I have come across people who videoed their own suicides. I am not sure if they were recorded it live or delayed uploads.

How do you feel about this. I wish I could say I would never consider it but I am not sure I can rule it.

I wouldn't. I think this is a very private time. Just my opinion.

 

[Crazy4u]

I would hate to have a video of my ctb. I am a very private person

 

[StarryStarry]

I've always thought I lived alone and will die alone. I wouldn't share it. Either people will enjoy watching it or feel sad. I don't want people to feel like that during the moment of peace. I feel judged enough.

Well said - I totally agree.

 

[KTbear]

In my search for information on CTB I have come across people who videoed their own suicides. I am not sure if they were recorded it live or delayed uploads.

How do you feel about this. I wish I could say I would never consider it but I am not sure I can rule it.

I would never even consider that. There is no reason I'd want anyone to see it. I plan to hopefully make it to where either my body is never found, or at least only found by professionals who wouldn't get traumatized.

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

I'm a very private person but ironically I'd have no problem doing this and would actually be proud to be the first public SN death video. It would be like a public service from my perspective. I have never been a part of someone's livestream however because that feels immoral to me. I also have no interest in a ctb partner because I'd want to die alone which probably is confusing to people. I wouldn't do it though because that's not what I should've been known for and also I think it would upset my family and I don't want to do that to them.

 

[Circles]

After the NYT paper in my own opinion I think recording your suicide should be banned on the site. What is the purpose? I mean the only things I can think of is maybe to have a more personal goodbye session but that just makes it more morbid in a way and make grieving for a member much harder and also makes the site look bad. Another is for research purposes but honestly as much as I'd like know what happens when you take sn or n or whatever we are not guinea pigs and some science experiments, plus the fact there are people with a gore fetish who like to watch people die so no thanks. I mean if anything make a recording of your voice or share pics of yourself, but recording your own death is just too much.

 

[deathLiberation]

To be honest, in order to access the success rate i look at post-suicide images.
So, i have mixed feelings, i wouldnt record it, but if someone take picture of it after its ok.

 

[Bleak]

I find it to be totally ghoulish and don't understand why anyone would do it.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

The thought of that is absolutely horrifying to me. I personally would never ever ever

 

[Samsara]

You know, I really wouldn't be opposed to it assuming I was successful in ctbing but maybe I'd want to disguise my identity so that I don't traumatize any people who know me

 

[Chey]

I'm not sure I care either way, which is, in itself, a little worrisome I guess that I don't really have feelings about it one way or another. I also don't think I mind a person documenting it either. I just would not know how to go about it right now but I believe I will research options.

No, just offering help to anyone who doesn't want their death to obviously be a suicide.

And it's one thing to be a comforting presence and be with someone as they pass away. It's an entirely different thing to voyeuristically watch their most private moment from a screen. Or, at least it is to me.

How would someone using N not look like a suicide?

 

[lmon]

I would want to do it for educational purposes of others seeking to ctb with my method. All you see is gunshot and hanging videos so I would like to contribute a vid of ,e doing it in a more peaceful way for others to see. Because in my own reasearch on this method I could not find it and don't know what it would look like. But I wouldn't want a live stream because someone could call authorities and I could be "saved". I would want a service that delays he vid

 

[Frog]

I thought about it just to prove I'm gone for good, but it's unnecessarily sadistic and cruel towards others. It isn't their fault.

 

[BRuss]

In the future, I suspect this will be commonplace, after CTB has been normalized.