Discussion How do you die in your fantasy?

[alivefornow]

All day long I imagine CTB in many different ways:

• Poisoning by household cleaning products
• Jumping (14th floor apartment, definitely my most common fantasy)
• Bullet to the head, I picture many guns and try to figure out the best spot to shoot
• Jumping in front of vehicle/train
• Bleeding to death at some remote location
• OD on some dangerous drug
• Drowning
• Slitting wrists
• Walking to some deserted, out-of-the-way place and waiting for death to take me
• Signing up for some stupid war (wouldn't even know how to go about this)

And several others. In fact, I there's not much else in my mind, if anything, these days. Just the moment of my death, which I yearn so much for.

How do you die in your fantasy?

 

[Tory123]

I used to think about eating a handful off bitter almonds, but lately ive been imagining going out to the forrest with an IED

 

[alivefornow]

I used to think about eating a handful off bitter almonds, but lately ive been imagining going out to the forrest with an IED

I don't much like the idea of actually going through with a method that would disfigure or destroy my body. I'd like to give my peers and family the opportunity to say goodbye to my intact face. So I would not like to die from an explosion. But I have fantasized about it, as well as other violent deaths that would leave me mangled. Can't control my suicidal imagination.

 

[western_heart]

Lying down on a bed, falling asleep, and ceasing to breathe by some sort of overdose.

Luxury version: outside on the shore sitting on a park bench, taking a lethal IV drug

 

[FieldsofLavender]

If it's just fantasy...

I'd want to take a drug that would make me feel really calm and warm, something that calms me and helps me fall asleep so I can curl up around my plushies and fade into blissful nothing...

 

[alivefornow]

Walking onto train tracks and waving goodbye to everyone before the train hits me. One final fuck you. The people catching the train would be mostly commuters, normal people. Something I'm not. They use a train to live life, I use it to end life.

Using your final hour to scar some poor strangers' minds. Do you hate others? People in general?

I have a lot of hatred in my heart and it's solely directed at me as of lately. I have no wish to shock or traumatize others with my passing, at least no more than it already would. I used to be more like you but I came to understand I did the whole fucking-up thing all by myself.

 

[Angi]

I like the fantasy of dying in an explosion. This sounds good right now. Often, I dream of beheading myself.

 

[alivefornow]

Lying down on a bed, falling asleep, and ceasing to breathe by some sort of overdose.

Luxury version: outside on the shore sitting on a park bench, taking a lethal IV drug

If it's just fantasy...

I'd want to take a drug that would make me feel really calm and warm, something that calms me and helps me fall asleep so I can curl up around my plushies and fade into blissful nothing...

Death in sleep and OD'ing on drugs that would ease the pain of passing seem to be popular fantasies among users of this website. Would explain why people discuss N and SN so much here.

I like the fantasy of dying in an explosion. This sounds good right now. Often, I dream of beheading myself.

Sometimes I imagine myself burning to death. I'm morbidly curious about how painful it must be.

 

[FieldsofLavender]

Death in sleep and OD'ing on drugs that would ease the pain of passing seem to be popular fantasies among users of this website. Would explain why people discuss N and SN so much here.

Sometimes I imagine myself burning to death. I'm morbidly curious about how painful it must be.

I'm really new, what is N and SN?... (⁠*⁠﹏⁠*⁠;⁠)

 

[Tory123]

I'm really new, what is N and SN?... (⁠*⁠﹏⁠*⁠;⁠)

N=Nitrogen gas: asphyxiation without CO2 buildup in blood, so it doesnt feel like choking

SN=Sodium Nitrite: a toxic salt which is by far the most popular poison on this forum

 

[alivefornow]

I'm really new, what is N and SN?... (⁠*⁠﹏⁠*⁠;⁠)

N would be Nitrogen, a gas one can breathe instead of regular air. The lungs are fooled into filling up with useless gas and you end up passed out and eventually dead from lack of oxygen.

SN is Sodium Nitrite, a salt that one can ingest. It cuts out the transportation of oxygen through the bloodstream, leading to failure of organs and death.

 

[mojabaka]

Someone shooting me in the head while I sleep.

 

[hamtaro]

N = Nembutal
N2 = Nitrogen

 

[my_sundown]

whatever it is, hopefully I'm asleep, peaceful and I don't have to wait 50 years.

 

[ephemerality]

In an ideal situation, I feel nothing at all. I don't have to do anything and I'm gone without even noticing. Realistically, ODing on something peaceful somewhere isolated, where I can connect with nature, playing my favourite music. There's something beautiful about the idea of returning to nature in my final moments.

 

[HopelessSoul]

Alone at night on the beach either by N or shot to the head.

 

[outrider567]

All day long I imagine CTB in many different ways:

• Poisoning by household cleaning products
• Jumping (14th floor apartment, definitely my most common fantasy)
• Bullet to the head, I picture many guns and try to figure out the best spot to shoot
• Jumping in front of vehicle/train
• Bleeding to death at some remote location
• OD on some dangerous drug
• Drowning
• Slitting wrists
• Walking to some deserted, out-of-the-way place and waiting for death to take me
• Signing up for some stupid war (wouldn't even know how to go about this)

And several others. In fact, I there's not much else in my mind, if anything, these days. Just the moment of my death, which I yearn so much for.

How do you die in your fantasy?

Peacefully thru Nitrogen

 

[Anon1337]

Using your final hour to scar some poor strangers' minds. Do you hate others? People in general?

I have a lot of hatred in my heart and it's solely directed at me as of lately. I have no wish to shock or traumatize others with my passing, at least no more than it already would. I used to be more like you but I came to understand I did the whole fucking-up thing all by myself.

I dislike humanity tbh. I did some of the fucking up myself but I have been treated badly by so many people. No one ever reached out to me, no one cared.

 

[PrisonBreak]

I don't want to die, but due to health circumstances I would prefer to die in my sleep without being aware.

 

[Death is my goal]

bleeding

 

[FuneralCry]

Just dying in my sleep sounds like the most ideal and peaceful way to die to me as I don't wish to go through any dying process but out of the actual suicide methods I would choose N. To me there is nothing more perfect than leaving this world in a peaceful way and I envy people who are able to die in such a way.

 

[Anonymus]

I've just thought about going to the mountains in the middle of winter, in a cave and wait... I know that at first the cold is quite painful (it happens to me often in a city like Barcelona, which has a mild climate, with the first cold of November and February) but then my body goes numb, my fingers turn blue, as well as my lips and I start to doze off.

It shouldn't happen to me in the city but it does, so I guess in the middle of a mountain (or why not? just sleeping in the street near home) I would die and I wouldn't know anything about it.

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Jo simplement he pensat d'anar-me'n a la muntanya en ple hivern, en una cova i esperar.. se que al principi el fred fa força dolor (em passa sovint en una ciutat com Barcelona, que és de clima benestant, amb els primers freds de novembre i els de febrer) però després se m'entumeix el cos, s'em posen els dits blavosos, així com els llavis i em començo a endormiscar.

No m'hauria de passar a ciutat però em passa, així que suposo que bell mig d'una muntanya (o perquè no? simplement dormint a carrer a la vora de casa) em moriría i no m'assebentaría de res.

 

[Darkover]

by nuke into there is nothing left to destory