Discussion How do you deal with the daily pain?

[daydreamer52]

You may have already seen this question somewhere else but I wanted to discuss about it.

I'll start, I try to distract myself for as long as possible, watching a movie, playing videogames or scrolling through ig to keep me busy for a while, as well as day dreaming, fantasizing about a life in which people know my name, I'm not a loser, my parents feel proud about me and I can talk with women without feeling really anxious. This distractions are starting to not be enough, the thoughts about ctb are becoming stronger so I'm thinking alcohol could be the answer or simply just ctb right away.

 

[Cepi]

Sounds like my typical day. I'd say get into therapy and get depression meds but I know not everyone can. I'd recommend writing how you feel each day when you feel really bad or take a walk at night when there's nobody around so you won't feel insecure. But If we're talking about really distancing yourself I'd say some alcohol wouldn't kill you from time to time. Better than offing yourself and regretting it.

 

[doneforlife]

I also distract myself. I listen to music. Just plain music without lyrics. From different parts of the world. German, Spanish , French , Italian. Mostly guitar chords and piano. Slow and soothing. If I have to absolutely detach myself from this world, I write.

 

[pando12718]

Oxazepam, knowing that my parents still love me, knowing that I am not a complete idiot, albeit my life and my actions have often been stupid because of being too emotional and sensitive.

 

[FuneralCry]

The way I see it as long as one exists there is no choice but to suffer. Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for, I've only ever wished for true peace from this dreadful and futile existence. I see sleeping as being the best way to pass the time as it's the closest thing to not-existing but temporary sleep could never offer much of a relief as long as the chance of waking is always there and it isn't like it's always straightforward to fall asleep anyway.

 

[eashanm]

I writhe in pain, agony and misery. :P

 

[isthisit?]

Most of the time I just live though it but sometimes I hop on vatsim and do a flight.