Video games, youtube, hulu, work, etc are things that are real and I used to use alot back then when it was actually effective. Now I cant even play a good game without thinking about ctb.
Dreams and fantasies about what I want to be in the future used to help me alot, now they are just petty mental dilemmas fueling my needs for ctb.
For some odd reason an old crush from years back has never left the inner levels of my mind and it seems that my brain uses the thoughts of her as a quick dopamine hit, this used to work but like the others it also fucking failed aaaaand to make it evem worse this coping needle fix is spiralling me further & further into ctb!