Help How do you cope?

[kilowatt]

This is a last resort but I genuinely need help. I planned to be gone by the end of the year but as you see I didn't successfully go through with it. I'm in a very bad place in my life and even worse place mentally. I struggle financially trying to get through from a month to another. I very obviously wish to be gone out of this world but I don't have the stability or resources to do that as soon as I'd like.
I ran out of coping mechanisms. There's no solutions left I can try for my problems. My mental has gotten so bad it's affecting my health and day to day life. I believe so far I've tried everything I could think of in order to cope or get some relief on my own terms (alcohol, medicine, self harm, meditation, games, hobbies, getting into a healthy lifestyle, trying to socialize etc) but no matter what I do my thoughts take over any activity I do. I'm so stuck as of the past few weeks all I do every day is put up with withdrawals, hangover, sob all day or sleep. Is there anything else I'm missing? Any suggestions?
I've had previous bad experiences with therapy but even if it was an option I can't afford that. I'm also pretty lonely and isolated and don't wish to open up to the only friend I have left because I'm too scared of them walking out on me or not being able to handle it. I don't know what to do

 

[Sleeper System]

You're not alone. Many of us are living month to month. Check to check. Trying to keep our heads above water. It's a hard life. Anyone would call it quits. So I understand you.

I'm in the same situation. At this point im just tired. Call it depression call it laziness call it whatever. I just dont want to do this anymore. I dont care what the future holds so no point in just sitting here suffering.

 

[kilowatt]

You're not alone. Many of us are living month to month. Check to check. Trying to keep our heads above water. It's a hard life. Anyone would call it quits. So I understand you.

I'm in the same situation. At this point im just tired. Call it depression call it laziness call it whatever. I just dont want to do this anymore. I dont care what the future holds so no point in just sitting here suffering.

I'm so hopeless for the future it's not even an option. I'm really just trying to find a middle ground I can be stable on to not end up doing any sudden thing I know I'd regret. I just want it to be mildly bearable for a month or two so I can really plan my shit