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FractalTears

FractalTears

Member
Feb 4, 2022
51
It's a horrible feeling with no solution in sight 😟
 
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HappyForever?

Love from the deepest dream
Feb 14, 2021
326
I don't. I just wait until everything is ready so I can ctb.
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
2,913
Yeah, I don't cope either, that's why I joined a suicide forum. I don't want to do it but I know for a fact the future will just get darker and darker and I have no strength for it. I already was struggling during the Oblivious Era pre 2020.
 
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PreussenBlueJay

PreussenBlueJay

Too short for Frederick William I’s Guards
Jan 18, 2022
211
Though it may sound platitudinous, I think of life as a rollercoaster that only goes down from the peak. Recognizing that nothing is significant in the end and everyone is on the ride toward the same destination no matter what and that it really doesn't matter when each individual person arrives there makes me think that I'll soldier on for now and if I don't feel like it I won't anymore. We've probably all lived an infinite number of times by now in my opinion. At least I don't think there's either a beginning or end to time. We naturally degrade over time but I can't help but have a sinking feeling we'll poof into existence again in fresh bodies.

I guess it depends on what you mean by "things" improving.
 
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anxious_depressive

I'm in despair
Dec 21, 2021
240
I've just come to terms with the fact that life is getting worse.

I have no choice but ctb.
The future is terrifying.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,339
In my case, I cannot cope with life at all and I am only still here because it is difficult to ctb. If it was easier to leave, I would already be gone. It can be very dreadful when everything is hopeless. In my case, the suffering will only end when I am dead. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will.
 
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ikadasui

ikadasui

Arcanist
May 29, 2018
464
I don't really. My fates long been set in stone and I just try to get by day by day while hoping I finally get pushed past the point of no return. As much as I want to go I'm not strong enough unless something happens, I've held my gun to my head multiple times and clearly didn't do it so I need some kind of stimuli to cross the threshold. Till then I just try and go to work and not get fired and maintain what weak bonds of friendship I still have I guess
 
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Kobusu

Kobusu

Writer
Oct 18, 2021
268
Hahahaha I don't think any of us cope with it friend, that's why we're here.
 
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ormaybeyoucouldchill

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Aug 26, 2021
25
Personally, I usually just distract myself from dreadful feelings with YouTube, Netflix, and TikTok. I'm afraid that's the best advice I can come up with.

But for what it's worth, I think you would be better off posting this in the "Recovery" section.
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
With the fact that N exist
 
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meetapple

meetapple

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
585
I just avoid my stressors as much as I can when I can. When I can't anymore I will decide what needs to be done.
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
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gottago222

gottago222

paranoia bae
Dec 21, 2021
275
ctb is my solution . im done being strong
 
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allesistgut

Experienced
Jan 22, 2022
275
for me personally i don't believe that there is anything that could provide a permanent solution to my issues or leave me content. for now, i guess i'm just trying (very badly) to somewhat cope with life until my time eventually comes.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
CTB is my solution I really need to get out of here
 
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markimobzzdeasui

markimobzzdeasui

Life is a cruel joke
Oct 24, 2021
1,151
I cannot cope as the problems I have are actually unsolvable and there is a certainty that things will get way much worse If I decided to carry on! Ctb is my only ticket out of this hell.
 
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MiserableInCT

MiserableInCT

Desperately lonely
Feb 4, 2022
22
I want very much to be apart of this community message board, but I am terrified to share anything too personal. I don't have any social media accounts and never post anything about myself publicly. Still, I wish for death constantly. I hate myself for being so adult responsible to the point of not being able to take action. And so I just suffer day after day after day. I can't go on like this indefinitely. I had been talking about "having an exit strategy" and if I had all the pieces in place and knew I could end my life when I decided I wanted to do so then perhaps each day wouldn't leave me feeling so trapped.

After 52 years of misery I am certain nothing is going to change. I am a prisoner of my government. Why am I not allowed to painlessly end my life without hurting anyone; without leaving behind debts or responsibility (like children) ?? My death would harm no one and yet I am forced to remain a capitalism slave working to pay bills to make corporation shareholders richer. That is my only value to my government and thusly they force me to remain alive to that rich people stay rich.

Let Me End My Life Peacefully!
 
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elfin

elfin

Member
Feb 8, 2022
80
i don't, i guess my eating disorder is a coping mechanism but it clearly doesn't work that well otherwise i wouldn't be planning to ctb
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
512
I sleep about 14 hours a day. The rest of it I try to escape into books. An occasional meal. Petting my dog. No hopes for the future, but I'm still trying to do healthy stuff that might help even though I'm quite sure they won't. Take my meds. Do some yoga (I do the one with yoga with Adriene for ptsd on YouTube). Try to go for short walks. Do little things around the house. I don't work. I'm barely living. But I promised myself for some silly reason I'd go on until the 22 of December 2022 for the cool date . And also to give life one absolutely last chance so that I can go in peace. Right now I'm trying out the carnivore diet to see if that can lift my misery and pain. Did I say books. And philosophy lessons on YouTube and stuff like that. Just got a new book by Jean Amery: "On suicide". So eager to read it. He committed suicide two years after he wrote it. Sorry for the rant. I don't have a life. Only books. Oh yeah and movies and series. And I'm on here every day. Multiple times a day.
 
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Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
I don't know what coping really looks like. I'm still breathing, still eating. It's really hard to do, as it all feels so bloody pointless…
 
brainpain2

brainpain2

Student
Sep 16, 2019
126
Knowing I can opt out. I can't sleep
So I can't even sleep the nightmare that is my life away
 
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Ane

Ane

Member
Aug 18, 2022
14
ctb is my solution . im done being strong
i don't, i guess my eating disorder is a coping mechanism but it clearly doesn't work that well otherwise i wouldn't be planning to ctb
I am new member here
Can you please tell me what does Ctb mean?
I cannot cope as the problems I have are actually unsolvable and there is a certainty that things will get way much worse If I decided to carry on! Ctb is my only ticket out of this hell.
 
Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
We're here and not on ig posting holiday pictures, i don't think it will get any better.
 
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tser1073

tser1073

Member
Jul 7, 2022
19
Yeah, I don't cope either, that's why I joined a suicide forum. I don't want to do it but I know for a fact the future will just get darker and darker and I have no strength for it. I already was struggling during the Oblivious Era pre 2020.
Definitely feels like 2020 was the year of "find out" now that the "f*ck around" years have ended
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
I have some strange fantasy that this is like a sick day although it's gone on for a year and I've just been laying on my couch all day long watching videos… I'm imagining I'll feel better in my life will go back to normal again but I know it won't… I guess I'm just hoping I'll get some kind of illness and die
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
It's a horrible feeling with no solution in sight 😟
I used to watch anime waiting for my expiration date but I can't anymore, too sick, my eyes burn... So I'm here. At least we all die someday.
I am new member here
Can you please tell me what does Ctb mean?
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I love you, fellow death wisher 🦋
I am new member here
Can you please tell me what does Ctb mean?
Catch The Bus?

I love you, fellow death wisher 🦋
 
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Astral Storm

Astral Storm

Existence hurts too much
Aug 10, 2022
74
The fact that I can commit suicide and I will die one day keeps me sane. This place is truly horrible. It's full of violence and cruelty. I never wanted to be here and I will be happy when death comes.
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
I don't. I just wait to reach my breaking point.
 
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