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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
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I think this is the hardest thought to deal with anymore- I constantly think about how I could get hit by a train commuting or something… and no one would care.

My father remarried and is more or less completely out of my life. My mother is died when I was a teenager. My siblings don't care. All my friendships have been shallow and inevitably they all abandoned me when I was struggling.

I just wonder what is the point in living when no one will really miss you when you're gone anyway?
 
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oxydd

New Member
Jun 17, 2025
4
I would rather be completely forgotten when I'm gone why be mourned when they never cared
 
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cemeteryismyhome

Wizard
Mar 15, 2025
626
It used to make me sad to think about, but now I don't care and it's a relief. I expect no more than 5 people at my funeral, include "necessary" attendees such as spouse and grown children. Maybe 5. I don't want to be seen or cared about.
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,332
Like @cemeteryismyhome I just don't care anymore. Except I have told the one and only person in this world that does care for me I don't want a funeral, memorial, any other kinda bullshit thing that society says you have to have to "honor" someone on their passing.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,746
Well one person really does care about me, my mom. When she goes I'm done
If I can wait that long.
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,828
That's my reality. Don't have anyone anymore. Everyone who did love me died. I'm the literal last one left out of my small-ish family. You just do what you can do to distract yourself and try not to think about it much. What else can you do? Crying all the time doesn't fix anything.
 
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brokeandbroken

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2023
1,179
I think this is the hardest thought to deal with anymore- I constantly think about how I could get hit by a train commuting or something… and no one would care.

My father remarried and is more or less completely out of my life. My mother is died when I was a teenager. My siblings don't care. All my friendships have been shallow and inevitably they all abandoned me when I was struggling.

I just wonder what is the point in living when no one will really miss you when you're gone anyway?
Yeah this is my story. I was in medical school studying to be an oncologist. Presented original work at conference even president of the oncology research group. I was the victim of crimes by a very corrupt university which I can prove. Like a switched was flipped. My entire family, whatever my social network was, essentially every single person I knew in a blink gone. Not because again I did anything wrong just because i guess the calculation for whatever value i was to them suddenly was gone so was their love. I didnt do anything wrong. Wasn't even accused of it. Just forced to pursue legal recourse for crimes committed against me that forced me out of the university in good standing. In a blink everything was gone. Id be lying if I said it didnt change the way I see people.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Mage
May 10, 2025
540
genes are absolutely overrated
for me
this planet is my mother
she is kind and gives us everything
I expect nothing from people
 
gottacheckout

gottacheckout

Experienced
May 20, 2025
216
That's my reality. Don't have anyone anymore. Everyone who did love me died. I'm the literal last one left out of my small-ish family. You just do what you can do to distract yourself and try not to think about it much. What else can you do? Crying all the time doesn't fix anything.

That's where I am. Family all dead. Sabotaging any friendships. Just me, 2 cats and a dog.
 
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turbomightbegone

turbomightbegone

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Nov 13, 2023
191
escapism via games and spacing out. it used to be art aswell but now that only makes stuff far worse
 
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TheLastGreySky

Wizard
Nov 24, 2023
619
I think this is the hardest thought to deal with anymore- I constantly think about how I could get hit by a train commuting or something… and no one would care.

My father remarried and is more or less completely out of my life. My mother is died when I was a teenager. My siblings don't care. All my friendships have been shallow and inevitably they all abandoned me when I was struggling.

I just wonder what is the point in living when no one will really miss you when you're gone anyway?
I love with my whole heart, and yet if a woman loses interest I'm considering selfish for wanting her to stay and tough things out.

The fact is this is a shallow world and it's not about right or wrong, but people take sides.
I say this because finding real love is hard,
And I can't honestly tell you it will last forever if it comes. But, I will tell you this...

You are worth more than every star in the sky.
One day a man would love to call you his world.
One day (should you desire so) little children will call you mama.

But... You won't know what heaven looks like until you've been permanently scarred by the fires of hell. And that's the cruel reality. 90% of people don't care, and out of that 90% of people most of them will pretend to care to try to sleep with you or get something out of you.

And this isn't some issue exclusive to women.
I've had women "love me" for my body or because I was a meal ticket. That's just how it is.
But you're stronger than you realize.
Thanks for reading.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,095
For me, a handful of people do care. In my case, it's more having to acknowledge that no one can help me, no matter how much they care. It's life itself and all that it entails that burdens me. Sad to say but, their 'love' is more of a tether than a support. They are the obstacle between me and peace. (Hopefully.) Which- actually isn't a loving act at all. It's a selfish need to keep me here so that they don't have to suffer.
 

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