Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

šŸŽµ Be all, end all šŸŽµ
Apr 17, 2023
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There's some things I want to do but it doesn't seem possible. It nags at me.
 
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CentreMid

CentreMid

Sorry
Aug 23, 2018
478
I usually just tell myself that I wouldn't be able to afford what I want to do no matter what anyways. Helps me get over the hurt/longing a little easier.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I ask myself whether those things would REALLY make me happy- for one. I think about how realistic it is for me to achieve those things. I ask myself if a compromise is acceptable.

Still- it's kind of like your question yesterday- I'm not so sure there's anything left in this world I truly want anymore.

But yeah- as I believe it- everything ends at death anyway. It won't really matter what I did and didn't do. Not to me anyway.

If you're hoping to be remembered/ revered by others and want to leave some sort of legacy behind- then- that's got to be up to you. Depends on whether you've got enough fuel in the tank to finish it. Some people do have things they want to do before they leave. Makes sense if it's going to get them closer to a calmer state of mind. I feel done with this world. I'm just waiting for the right time now and hoping I have the guts for it.
 
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90starve

i donā€™t know who i am
May 8, 2023
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i also still have things i want to do - but i honestly don't feel like completing them will serve me any good in the end.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,737
After death is non-existence forever. Nothing will matter in 130 years . anything a human does or doesn't do won't matter in 500 years. Nothing of what that human did or wanted in life will remain after dying.

If I have the illusion that I want to do something tomorrow. Even if do it I won't remember it after I die . Every human will die.

I won't remember anything because I won't exist forever after this brain dies. And death will happen no one can stop death

U give just one example of why non-existence forever is the best thing. U will cease to have unfulfilled wants or needs. All the bad memories will be gone forever.

they have most people believing in afterlives. That would be horrible imo because of unfulfilled wants and boredom, recalling bad memories , depression , and being a slave of your mind for trillions of years etc.

Some truths have gotten through in some sayings "you can't take it with you", life is hard, life is short, life's a bitch

In a way saying there are afterlives is like saying death doesn't exist u just go into another stage afterlife or reincarnation. Why? There is no evidence.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I've always wished to permanently cease existing, for me death is the only relief, the thought of everything finally being forgotten about comforts me. I don't have to convince myself of anything, I'm always wishing to be gone, I think it's always preferable to not exist.
 
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FrostedHoax

FrostedHoax

Student
Dec 1, 2022
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Even if my life were to suddenly turn around and I were able to start actually living and not just go through the motions everyday, I would probably still want to die simply because of the miserable state of this world. The fact that there's so many suffering while those in power just sit idly by or even actively cause suffering and there's little to nothing that I can do to help change this is enough to make me want to CTB. I think my wants and just who I am overall as a person are fully incompatible with this world.
 
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mlcs

Student
Jun 11, 2023
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I wanted to do a lot of things. I bought a lot of cars I wanted, visited a lot of places, met a lot of people and accomplished many other things, and I wanted more. I just wasn't able to divide possible from impossible because I still didn't get to know myself. I feel numb and lost since my teenage hospitalisation and forced medication. Since than I act by memory. My reactions aren't natural, I don't feel things around myself as normal people do, as I felt before meds. I've never got to know my limits and was constantly trapped between lack of energy and trying to escape basic feeling of lethargy that always leads me to depression. I had to keep myself busy and active while desperately craving for rest, but I lost ability to be relaxed and not stressed, and physical resting would just lead me to anxiety and depression. I tried to escape, I fought battles in my head while also fighting battles every regular person has to, which was burden one to another. New problems were coming, old problems were reappearing while I still haven't figured out how to overcome the first one. I was fighting to escape the inevitable death, since realising how terrifying is it really kill yourself. Sometimes it seemed like I was close to escaping. I had periods when I was accomplishing things, earning good salary, had decent social life, trained regurarly, looked healthy. But the energy I had to invest to make it that way was beyond what was I capable of. I was litterally travelling every other week, hanged out every weekend and worked 12 hours shifts. I noticed I was getting increbidly tired and decided to slow down. I started taking long vacations but I wasn't able to rest even for a minute. Everything was like a chore. And thought of resting and not doing anything useful while life opportunities are waiting out there was killing me from the inside. I had to get up again and return to the previous lifestyle. I couldn't. I snapped and I'm not able to get and try anything again. I was never able to enjoy anything, and certainly won't be able to fo it now whem everything is lost.
 

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