I literally told a therapist I wanted to set myself on fire before and nothing happened. I told people I was trying to go to Dignitas. I have told people my plans in explicit detail, because they asked and then they told me "your needs are too severe for this service".. How are people getting committed so often? I said I was suicidal at every damn session. Only once was I offered to be seen by a nurse, I said no and that was it. You need to see my ex-therapist, but actually no, he is awful. I dunno. This was not the most recovery-friendly post, ha. Sorry. But if you worry about getting committed, there are some that genuinely don't give a shit, so there's that?
In other news, for some, therapists are lifesavers and you can really turn it around with help. Hopefully you will get the help you need.