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GreenTree
Mage
- Jun 1, 2020
- 568
How the hell do we all get through the days. Its agony 24/7.
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What about finances, shopping, cleaning up. I find these virtually impossible. Never wanted to be on benefits and now I am there are millions which is all too complex with mental illness. Another reason I want to kick the bucket.I just exist really. I do not do a lot. I try to sleep as much as I possibly can. I live such an empty existence and I am tired of it. I am only still here because it is difficult to ctb. If it was easier to leave this world, I would already be gone. I wish I could just dissappear
Benzos help. But back too square 1 after a few hours.I find it a lot easier when I have drugs to keep me company.
I haven't done laundry in the last 5 months. My place is a mess. Yeah benzos help temporarily, mostly to help me sleep, then it's back to shitty reality again. I feel your pain. I just want this all to stopWhat about finances, shopping, cleaning up. I find these virtually impossible. Never wanted to be on benefits and now I am there are millions which is all too complex with mental illness. Another reason I want to kick the bucket.
Benzos help. But back too square 1 after a few hours.
That about sums it up, minus the bullshit friends for me because I don't have any.Sprinkled hope here and there, spite from my bullshit friends, and some sort of "force" I can't describe accurately; like a power that halts all opportunities to ctb that come my way.